If I Was Someone Better

You showed up like a sunrise

On a night I thought would never end

Said my name like it mattered

Like my heart was something you could mend

And I swear when you look at me

The whole world fades to gray

But loving you is dangerous

In a different kind of way

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You’re the kind of boy that people trust

The kind that never learned to run from love

While I’m the storm rolling through your sky

The warning sign you never saw in time

You laugh and say I overthink

That I’m stronger than the ghosts I keep

But if you knew the things I hide

You wouldn’t stand so close tonight

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You touch my hand and I forget the truth

That someone like me shouldn’t love someone like you

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If I was someone better

If my heart was safe and kind

I’d keep you forever

And never say goodbye

But you deserve a sunrise

Not the shadows I’ve become

So I’ll love you from a distance

Even though you’re the only one

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You talk about forever

Like it’s something we could hold

Like the world won’t break our hearts

Like we’ll never grow too cold

You say my scars don’t scare you

You say my past don’t matter now

But every angel needs a halo

And mine fell off somehow

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When you pull me close I almost believe

Maybe I could be the girl you see

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If I was someone better

If my heart was safe and kind

I’d keep you forever

And never say goodbye

But you deserve a sunrise

Not the shadows I’ve become

So I’ll love you from a distance

Even though you’re the only one

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Sometimes I picture summer nights

Your hand tangled into mine

Dancing in a parking lot

Under broken neon signs

And in that dream I’m fearless

And I finally let you stay

But reality comes crashing in

And steals that world away

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Because loving me is walking on a wire

And I’d rather burn alone than watch you catch my fire

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If I was someone better

If my heart was safe and kind

I’d keep you forever

And never say goodbye

But you deserve a sunrise

Not the war inside my soul

So I’ll love you from a distance

Even if it breaks me whole

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Maybe in another life

Where I’m not afraid to stay

Where the darkness in my veins

Doesn’t push your light away

Maybe we’d be laughing

On a porch at 3AM

And every broken piece of me

Would finally make some sense

Maybe I’d be brave enough

To let your love come through

Maybe I’d believe for once

That I deserve you too

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But you shine too bright for me

And I’d rather lose you gently

Than watch your heart bleed

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If I was someone better

If my heart was safe and kind

I’d keep you forever

And never say goodbye

But you deserve a sunrise

Not the storm I always bring

So I’ll love you from a distance

Even if it ruins everything

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And if someday you forget me

I’ll still whisper your name

Because loving you was the one thing

That never felt like pain.