Nobody Shows Up

Intro 
I don’t need saving..
(no)
I just need someone to stay.
(stay…)

Verse 1
Memories folded into boxes
Photos ripped like they don’t bleed
I didn’t miss him — I miss having
Someone choosing me
(choosing me…)

I did the work, I did the cutting
Burned the past, told the truth
Every time I finally fall apart
Everybody’s busy, too
(busy…)

Pre-Chorus
I don’t ask for much
(I don’t)
Just don’t disappear
When I finally say
“I’m not okay in here”
(in here…)

Chorus
I’m screaming in silence
(no one hears me)
And nobody shows up
I’m holding it together
(barely)
With tape and bad luck

I don’t want fixing
(don’t fix me)
I don’t want advice
I just want someone to sit with me
In the middle of the night
(just sit…)

I’m not dramatic
(I’m not)
I’m just worn thin
I keep surviving
(still here)
But I’m tired of it

Verse 2
I cut people loose for not replying
Not out of spite — it just hurts
When you’re already on the edge
Silence hits you first
(hits first…)

I don’t need promises or praise
Or “you’re strong” like it’s a cure
I’m strong ‘cause I had no choice
Not ‘cause I’m okay anymore
(not okay…)

Pre-Chorus
I don’t want to vanish
(I don’t)
I just want relief
From feeling like I’m last in line
To everyone but me
(but me…)

Chorus
I’m screaming in silence
(say something)
And nobody shows up
I’m swallowing anger
(don’t explode)
Trying not to erupt

I don’t want forever
I don’t want a plan
I just want to matter
When I say “I can’t”
(I can’t…)

I’m not broken
(I’m not)
I’m just done
With being the strong one
For everyone

Bridge 
I threw away letters, gifts, memories
(let it burn)
Not ‘cause I’m cruel — ‘cause I’m free
If I sound bitter, good
That’s what healing sounds like in me

I’m not asking to be saved
(don’t save me)
I’m asking not to be ignored
There’s a difference
(there is)
And I’m tired of explaining it

Chorus 
I’m screaming in silence
(still breathing)
But I’m still here
Even when nobody shows up
I don’t disappear

I don’t need a crowd
(don’t need noise)
I need what’s real
And if that’s just me tonight
Then I’ll learn to deal
(I will)

I’m angry, I’m grieving
(both)
I’m letting it out
I won’t disappear
Just because they don’t show up now

Outro 
I’m still here.
(still here)
Even if no one came.

female,alt rock/emo,electro pop/edm,synth undertones,technic,emotional,strong vocals,fast paced,beats,808s,dubstep