I wonder

I wonder what you would do 
if I told you the truth 
I wonder if you would be shocked 
I wonder if you would believe me
what if I told you I’m not always happy
not just a robot
if I told you I’m scared of you
what would you think
how would you see me
what if I said I was back to crying myself to sleep
I was back to hating hugs
back to being on guard
back to being so lost to the way the world is
back to thinking everything is fake
back to hating myself
wishing I was dead
back to wondering why
I wonder what you would do 
if I told you the truth 
I wonder if you would be shocked 
I wonder if you would believe me
what if I told you I’m not always happy
not just a robot 
what if I told you 
that you’ve done so much to me 
hurt me so bad
 but I still hope for your best 
I hope you have a great life 
I hope you learn your boundaries 
I hope you become a blessing 
I hope you heal from whatever hurt you 
from whenever  
I hope  you stop hurting people because someone hurt you
I hope everything works out 
and I can’t understand why 
I still care why 
I still hope 
I feel  so dead inside 
I feel like my brain and my soul and my spirit are all at war right now
 and there isnt anything I can do 
I wonder what you would do 
if I told you the truth 
I wonder if you would be shocked 
I wonder if you would believe me
what if I told you I’m not always happy

[Female Vocal]
Piano solo
[Outro]

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