I wonder

I wonder what you would do

if I told you the truth

I wonder if you would be shocked

I wonder if you would believe me

what if I told you I’m not always happy

not just a robot

if I told you I’m scared of you

what would you think

how would you see me

what if I said I was back to crying myself to sleep

I was back to hating hugs

back to being on guard

back to being so lost to the way the world is

back to thinking everything is fake

back to hating myself

wishing I was dead

back to wondering why

I wonder what you would do

if I told you the truth

I wonder if you would be shocked

I wonder if you would believe me

what if I told you I’m not always happy

not just a robot

what if I told you

that you’ve done so much to me

hurt me so bad

but I still hope for your best

I hope you have a great life

I hope you learn your boundaries

I hope you become a blessing

I hope you heal from whatever hurt you

from whenever

I hope you stop hurting people because someone hurt you

I hope everything works out

and I can’t understand why

I still care why

I still hope

I feel so dead inside

I feel like my brain and my soul and my spirit are all at war right now

and there isnt anything I can do

I wonder what you would do

if I told you the truth

I wonder if you would be shocked

I wonder if you would believe me

what if I told you I’m not always happy

Piano solo