Loud In My Head

**[Verse 1]**

I wake up tired even after I sleep

Like my dreams running laps I can’t keep

Got a thousand little voices debating my worth

Every minor mistake feel nuclear first

I smile in public, I joke, I deflect

Got armor built out of humor and intellect

But alone in the room, it get different at night

Every silence turn into a fight

Overthinking every word that I said

Replaying conversations in my head

“Should’ve said this,” “why’d you say that?”

Brain looping like a scratched-out track

They say “you good?” and I nod on cue

How I explain what I barely construe?

It’s not sadness, it’s heavier than that

Like a weight on my chest I can’t unpack

**[Pre-Hook – Soft Build]**

I keep it together in front of the crowd

But it gets so loud…

**[Hook – Catchy, Melodic]**

It’s loud in my head, can’t turn it down

Thoughts going round and round and round

Tryna find peace but it won’t be found

When it’s loud in my head

I’m smiling outside, breaking within

Fighting a war that nobody can see

If I say I’m fine, I’m just pretending

It’s loud in my head

**[Verse 2]**

Scrolling through lives that look so clean

Everybody shining through a filtered screen

Meanwhile I’m stuck in a fog so thick

Turning small doubts catastrophic

I compare my pace to a highlight reel

Like I’m behind in a race that ain’t real

Pressure to be more, pressure to win

Pressure just to function and breathe again

Some days getting up feel brave

Like I climbed out a self-dug grave

Other days I just float through hours

Numb to the taste of my own damn power

I hate that I know what to say to a friend

But can’t take my own advice in the end

Self-aware but still I drown

In the tide of a self-made frown

**[Pre-Hook]**

I keep it together in front of the crowd

But it gets so loud…

**[Hook – Bigger, Layered Vocals]**

It’s loud in my head, can’t turn it down

Thoughts going round and round and round

Tryna find peace but it won’t be found

When it’s loud in my head

I’m smiling outside, breaking within

Fighting a war that nobody can see

If I say I’m fine, I’m just pretending

It’s loud in my head

**[Bridge – Half-Rap, Half-Sung]**

Maybe I don’t need to win every day

Maybe surviving is strength in a way

Maybe the noise don’t make me weak

Maybe it’s proof there’s depth in me

Therapy sessions, learning to sit

With the parts of myself I used to resist

Healing ain’t pretty, progress ain’t straight

But I’m still here — and that’s something great

**[Final Hook – Stripped, Hopeful Edge]**

It’s loud in my head… but I’m learning now

How to sit with the sound somehow

It don’t disappear, but it don’t control

Every part of my soul

It’s loud in my head

But I’m still breathing instead.

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