I just can't do crazy

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I love you so, lord knows I do.
But it's becoming harder to see it thru.
We go to bed feeling grateful for being together. then you wake up on another level, completely disheveled believing you're being treated badly and that you could do better. This is how I get woke up and the hateful attitude makes it really hard to keep giving a fuck.
I have alot of love for you girl, but all of the mood swings I am seeing you hurl are making a future with you seem a bit hazie... I'm thinking that all the love in the world won't help us endure now baby, cuz i just can't do it... I just can't do crazy!!
I understand you've been through some shit,
Your life has been filled with trauma, loss, sadness all legit. I empathize and understand that you must feel like you are just over it.
You try to control life and how you will be affected by the cards that life does deal to us all by subconsciously ruining your relationships or avoiding taking the fall... thinking this way is better, safer, a lesser burden of pain to bare. It hurts less when you just don't care.
With all that having been said, you still just ain't right in your head and it's really starting to phase me cuz I just can't do crazy!!!
I struggle with the idea of letting you go.
I do not want this, just so you know. In a perfect world, it wouldn't even be a thing. But this world is far from perfect, I'm just saying.
I have this guilt inside that makes me feel like maybe im just being sort of lazy... but for real girl, youve got to admit that you're coming off more than a little bat shit and I just can't do it, I just can't do crazy.
So I'm throwing my arms up in defeat. I'm over it now. I feel ive been beat. As you would say you won. Like we are playing a game, and it's supposed to be fun.
While your actions and perceptions never seice to amaze me I have had enough and all I can take of your kind of crazy.
I wish it didn't have to be and there was another way, but i just dont have it in me. There's nothing else I can say except i am sorry i just can't do crazy as I turn and walk away.