They say...

They say

Eventually,

everybody leaves me

Doesn't need me

Abandoning me

Leaving me lonely

& probably

Understandably

It's highly likely

It's cos of my unbelievably

Difficult personality

I end up in solitary

& possibly

Why, nobody

Likes to come see me

Or text me

Why, noones keen to stop by

& ask why

I sit alone & get high..

Its like noone likes me

They just ghost or uninvite me

Makes me wonder exactly

Is it real when people chill with me

Or am I just projecting paranoia suspecting

Detecting

Is it denying or am I lying,

To myself to them - I'm not trying

But seriously tho

I just wanna know bro

Do you know

Why they ignore me

When 2 seconds ago they were saying they adore me

Go on say it to my face honestly

I can handle it go on, you'll see

Yea I might cry or get angry

But that doesn't mean you gotta yell at me

Just talk, real talk no shit or walk

Whatever G

Who cares what they have to say about me

Fuck off already yup that's right you lost me

Cos you took their words over mine

So just go just leave, see...

that's what I said at the very beginning

See what did I say, no God damn way of winning,

Nobody ends up happy & grinning

It's always you who loses the last inning

So

Trust me, it's better off to be

Alone than with someone still feeling lonely

Left with only

Thoughts of insanity

Self profanity

I'm a freak

Too unique

But at least alone you're free to be & do what you wanna do, fully.

Haha BOOM!

That's why, actually

Go be a freak or weird cos that's exactly

What will make you happy

Fuck yes now i see

This whole time I could have been free

To be

Authentically me

I could make it way more fun

& at least this way I didn't become

Just another one,

Of those, "generic Jane's"

It can actually be shit being someone who breaks chains

& has brains

Who does things a little strange

That's the reason I'm here alone others outra range n hate change

So

Fuck them all anyway

Guess it means ill have to find some other way

& suck it up cos it's okay

Being alone, on my own, Monday to Sunday all day everyday

Yea that's the kick

The choice is to pick

Between truly me or be a dick

Be Alone or own a clique

But actual, straight up, I'd rather not

Deal with the shit who's hot or not

It's not worth my sanity I don't give a fuck if I lost my spot

As your bestie on snap or tik tok

I'm pretty good by myself over here

Least now I don't have to share

My gin or whisky or wine or beer

Fuck yea more for me

Aw watch me shed a tear

Wow ya know what else they say everywhere,

That life is short & it is what it is

So Murphys law & irony can give my ass a little kiss

I know for sure Karma has my back in all this

I just gotta mind my own business

And live

And play,

Laugh, Dance, cry & grow old & Grey.

& maybe thats actually why that's the thing "they say"

I get it now - haha okay - thank fuck that eventually everyone will leave me some day.

Might get some peace fucken yay