[Intro – Billy] I don’t get redemption arcs. I get moments. And mine ran out… So listen. [Verse 1] California sun burned holes in my skin, Dad’s fist louder than the words he was in. Learned real quick how to stay on attack, If you show weakness, they put a boot in your back. Every mirror looked like someone I hate, Every warning sign said I was too late. I didn’t wake up evil, I woke up afraid, So I learned how to hurt before I got played. Anger was armor, fists were my speech, Cruel was the distance I kept within reach. I lashed out first so I wouldn’t break, Turned pain into power, rage into shape. [Hook] I was never clean, never right, never safe, Carried my hell every step that I take. I know what I did, I know what I caused, I won’t ask forgiveness — just pause. If this is the end, let it be true, I’m sorry… for what I put you through. [Verse 2] Then something crawled inside my head, Used every scar, every word he said. Showed me oceans, showed me fire, Turned my hunger into a choir. I wasn’t steering — I was chained, Watching my body commit the pain. Every scream felt like déjà vu, Like the monster already knew me too. I saw her face when I hurt Max, Saw myself crack but I still snapped back. She deserved better, I knew it then, But knowing don’t stop the spiral you in. [Hook] I was never clean, never right, never safe, Carried my hell every step that I take. I know what I did, I know what I caused, I won’t ask forgiveness — just pause. If this is the end, let it be true, I’m sorry… for what I put you through. [Verse 3] When the smoke cleared, I remembered her, My mom in the sand, her voice a blur. She told me once I wasn’t my pain, But I built my name out of chains. Saw the kids stand where I always ran, Saw a girl still reach for my hand. That’s when I knew — it ends right here, Not as a monster, not ruled by fear. I stood in front of it, felt my bones crack, Didn’t win the war — just pushed it back. One choice clean in a life gone wrong, One moment strong after being weak so long. [Bridge] I won’t pretend I’m healed or good, I won’t erase what I never could. But if one act can break the line, Let it be mine. [Final Hook] I was never clean, never right, never safe, But I chose the end I’d rather face. Tell Max I tried, tell her I see, Tell her the monster wasn’t me. If these are the words I leave behind, Let them mean something this time. [Outro – Billy] I’m sorry. Not for dying. For living wrong… for too long.

I’m Sorry (Billy Hargrove)