[Intro] [Hook] (Just remember) all the shoulda coulda woulda's help no one So instead just do better - from now on [Verse 1] Not long ago while I cut my sons hair We started talking bout past years & then, he looked into my eyes and said "Thank you Mum, I love you" - roll down the tears So, I apologized for the times I failed him He replied nah mum, its all good you gave me the freedom To just, be myself no matter what that was And not just for me, but for all 3 of us & that.. [Pre chorus] that was the most amazing feels (I cried) Hearing my son tell me for reals (His side) I go from pride to guilt so quick knowing all the bits, I did so shit & though I know I tried Cant stop this feeling inside... [Chorus] I wish I could go back, & show up the way I know now I should But instead I gotta hope they know I did what I could The shame the guilt I wasnt there I wasnt good If a chance came to take it back, do it again - you know that I fucken would! If I could.. [Verse 2][female rap] Its never too late to show up for your kid Even if they've left home They'll always remember the times you did Good & the times they were left alone When instead they needed you there But you werent you were nowhere Childhood imprints the brain Adulthood footprints can be retrained So even though you cant go back & change the past mistakes you made Where you fucked up, dissappeared not show up when they felt afraid Step up, be consistent, its never too late Show up how you wished you had back then Its not the fall its the rise from the ash state The pasts guilt can cripple, so instead - choose redemption [Chorus] [Final Hook] But instead I have to get it in my head That all the shoulda coulda woulda's help no one All I can do is just do better from now on [Bridge] I look back to the past 20 years Thats when I became a mum I had no idea I'd end up here 41 with a daughter & 2 sons [Final chorus] I wanna go back, show up then, the way I know now I should And I gotta hope they know I did what I could The shame the guilt I wasnt there I wasnt good I hope for a chance to take it all back you know that I would - if I could.. [Final Hook] [Outro][female rap][melodic layers][adlib][melodic backing] Step up, be consistent, its never too late Show up how you wished you had back then Its not the fall its the rise from the ash state The pasts guilt can cripple, so instead - choose redemption [fade] And remember all the shoulda coulda woulda's help no one So instead just do better from now on [Quiet][heartfelt] [Mom] "I Love you son"

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