Mixed signals

WORLDPATTERNZ 

**Verse 1:**
High school sweetheart got me twisted in my mind  
Three dresses for the casino, leaving logic behind  
She asking me to tell her which one makes her shine  
While I'm questioning every word, reading between the lines  

She talking 'bout sugar daddies like it's just a game  
Men twice her age got her speaking with no shame  
I'm sitting here confused, driving myself insane  
Wonder if she really means it or just playing with my brain  

**Hook:**
Mixed signals got me losing sleep at night  
She say she going solo but she dressed up so right  
I know I ain't perfect, got my demons to fight  
But this cyclical thinking got me questioning my sight  

*Verse 2:*
She say she not going with nobody else tonight  
If she don't care, then why she asking me if she lookin fly?  
I'm drowning in the questions that I can't satisfy  
Self-hate creeping in when I should be standing high  

I know I'm not a bad person, trauma made me strong  
But she got me second-guessing everything I thought I knew for long  
Taking up my mental space, this feeling just feels wrong  
When I should be loving myself, writing my own song  

*Hook:*
Mixed signals got me losing sleep at night  
She say she going solo but she dressed up so right  
I know I ain't perfect, got my demons to fight  
But this cyclical thinking got me questioning my sight  

*Verse 3:*
Thirty-something feeling lost, don't know where to meet  
Real women with real hearts, not the ones who compete  
BPD got me feeling like I'm incomplete  
But I'm tired of toxic love, tired of this repeat  

I know I'm not ugly, got a heart that's pure gold  
But I keep choosing poison, same story getting old  
Narcissistic energy, manipulation so cold  
While I'm out here wanting love, real stories to be told  

Where the genuine souls at? Where the healing hearts stay?  
I'm done with all the games that these toxic people play  
Want someone who sees my worth, not someone who'll betray  
Gotta learn to love myself before I lose my way  

*Bridge:*
Maybe it's time to step back, see the bigger picture clear  
Stop letting mixed emotions be the only thing I hear  
I deserve someone who's real, not someone playing with my fear  
*Outro (Freestyle fade):*
Yeah... I'm tired of this game, man  
Tired of giving my all to people who don't give a damn  
BPD got me feeling everything times ten  
But that don't mean I gotta break, don't mean this is the end  

I'm learning to love myself, learning to stand tall  
Not everybody deserves access to my all  
High school sweetheart, casino nights, mixed signals and lies  
But I'm done letting toxic people dictate my highs  

Thirty-something and rising, finding my own way  
No more poison relationships, no more games to play  
Real love exists somewhere, but it starts with me  
Breaking cycles, healing trauma, finally being free  

Mixed signals... yeah... mixed signals...  
But my vision getting clearer now...  
I see through the noise...  
I deserve better

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