Mosh Pit

What have you been through?

You wouldn’t survive what I lived.

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What have you been through?

You ain’t never seen hitters they sent you

Never met killers that end you

Boss talk? You don’t resemble

No sleep, but the feeling is restful

Big sleep only coming with death, too

Each lash unlocking potential

Each page I’m writing in blood with a pencil

Chained up but I feel like a lion

Pain rise, but I’m feeling alive in it

Cracks in the hull of the vessel

I’m sinking—don’t know if I surface or wrestle

Born dying, just moved up the date

Reaper knocking, I tell him to wait

If you ain’t ready for what I became

Better never interrupt my fate

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They slept on the demon inside

Now they pray that I don’t wake it

I broke through the edge of myself

Now I don’t know where fear went

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PIT — PIT — PIT — PIT

Drop his body down into the pit

It’s a mosh pit, throw ’em in

This ain’t rage — this is discipline

PIT — PIT — PIT — PIT

Man you used to know? He dead to me

Buried deep where the past don’t breathe

Now the old me scared of me

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I’m loving that look on your face

Thought you came light — got bull at the gates

First step foot in the grave

Next step begging for grace

Everybody want peace

Till it’s too late to put it away

Everybody see red

Till it’s dripping out caps and backs

Woulda-coulda-shoulda backed up

Shouldn’t have crawled from the sewer

Holy Spirit when I’m in the room

Arms up — now you upping the tool

Hunger coming, I shine in it

I used to fear who I might be

Now I see clear — it’s me

Monster I dreamed, only thing scaring me

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I’m a junkyard dog

Pulled myself out the mud

Slumdog god

Scrapping embedded in blood

Never had shit, so there ain’t shit

You can take from me

Spoiled mouths never stood a fade

Stay the hell away from me

They threw us out, hunted us down

Now we bury you under the ground

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PIT — PIT — PIT — PIT

Drop his body down into the pit

It’s a mosh pit, throw ’em in

You don’t want this temperament

PIT — PIT — PIT — PIT

Man you used to know? He dead to me

Old self gone, don’t speak

Now the past scared of me

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They lied on my name

Threw me away, hoped I’d rot in the shame

But I don’t break

I climb back up, don’t care how long it take

Bottom of bottom, pressure applied

No hakuna matata — just survive

If you don’t shoot first, you get shot

But y’all ain’t about action, just talk

No boxing me in

Fighting sins I never committed

Now watch ’em rage quit

When the monster they made stays winning

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PIT — PIT — PIT — PIT

Throw the past down into the pit

Not a villain. Not redeemed.

Just the man that survived his own abyss.