Tell Me What I'm Living For

I’m not sure no more

I’m here writing down my lore

The battles are over but not the war

(T.S I don’t want to feel anymore)

Been bleeding ink since I hit the floor

These pages hold what I can’t ignore

Scars on the soul that I still explore

(T.S — tell me what this hurt is for)

Hmmm……

Ohh... I scream in silence, echoes don’t return

Hmm... I light my past just to watch it burn

Ohh... Tried to heal, but the lesson won't learn

(T.S, I’m breaking at the core)

Hmm... No peace in sleep, just another war

Ohh... Faith ran dry, can’t pray no more

Hmm... I’m not who I was before

(T.S, what am I living for?)

Not depressed, just need some rest

I have everything I need

I am really blessed

But seems something is needed

And I know my head’s a mess

Smile in the mirror but I still feel less

Weight on my chest, can’t decompress

I count my wins but still feel pressed

(T.S, why can’t I just feel progress?)

Time just slips away

Going through every day

Not knowing if I’m okay

Wish someone would help me see another way

Want them to see me and say

"You’re more than the pain that you hide away"

"You’ve been strong even when you break"

"You’re still here — that’s no mistake"

(T.S, I need a reason to stay)

Ohh... I scream in silence, echoes don’t return

Hmm... I light my past just to watch it burn

Ohh... Tried to heal, but the lesson won't learn

(T.S, I’m breaking at the core)

Hmm... No peace in sleep, just another war

Ohh... Faith ran dry, can’t pray no more

Hmm... I’m not who I was before

(T.S, what am I living for?)

Ohh... maybe tomorrow, I’ll feel the sun

Hmm... maybe the healing’s just begun

T.S, if you hear me — don’t run

I’m still holding on

Just not sure what I’m holding on from