Tell Me What I'm Living For

[intro]
I’m not sure no more 
I’m here writing down my lore 
The battles are over but not the war 
(T.S I don’t want to feel anymore)
Been bleeding ink since I hit the floor
These pages hold what I can’t ignore
Scars on the soul that I still explore
(T.S — tell me what this hurt is for)
Hmmm……

[chorus]

Ohh... I scream in silence, echoes don’t return
Hmm... I light my past just to watch it burn
Ohh... Tried to heal, but the lesson won't learn
(T.S, I’m breaking at the core)
Hmm... No peace in sleep, just another war
Ohh... Faith ran dry, can’t pray no more
Hmm... I’m not who I was before
(T.S, what am I living for?)

[verse 1]

Not depressed, just need some rest
I have everything I need
I am really blessed
But seems something is needed
And I know my head’s a mess
Smile in the mirror but I still feel less
Weight on my chest, can’t decompress
I count my wins but still feel pressed
(T.S, why can’t I just feel progress?)

[verse 2]

Time just slips away 
Going through every day 
Not knowing if I’m okay 
Wish someone would help me see another way 
Want them to see me and say 
"You’re more than the pain that you hide away"
"You’ve been strong even when you break"
"You’re still here — that’s no mistake"
(T.S, I need a reason to stay)
[chorus]

Ohh... I scream in silence, echoes don’t return
Hmm... I light my past just to watch it burn
Ohh... Tried to heal, but the lesson won't learn
(T.S, I’m breaking at the core)
Hmm... No peace in sleep, just another war
Ohh... Faith ran dry, can’t pray no more
Hmm... I’m not who I was before
(T.S, what am I living for?)

[Outro]

Ohh... maybe tomorrow, I’ll feel the sun
Hmm... maybe the healing’s just begun
T.S, if you hear me — don’t run
I’m still holding on
Just not sure what I’m holding on from

Alternative R&B / Emo Rap / Melodic Hip-Hop