Radioactive / No Closure

Don’t be my crutch when it gets gory…

Eyes on the phone, heart in purgatory.

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Baby, don’t be my crutch when this shit get gory

Radioactive touch, suffer purgatory

She heard the story, I been wearin’ a demon

Barely been eatin’, scrollin’ all night, can’t get to grievin’

Break it down, what does it mean to me?

Got here way too easy, that’s the misery

Good intentions, yeah, I got decency

But am I good when it’s inconvenient to be?

Put me on a pedestal, liked my tweets

Now my chest tight, got me grindin’ teeth

So I take another edible, go 5G

Old friends hate me, still can’t find my feet

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Always put myself above you just to feel important

Never take the tab, I can’t be rewarded

Wearing this demon, replaying the evening

Scrolling all night, dodging what I’m feeling

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I feel dangerous when I’m not sober

She want me bad, but she don’t want closure

Got too much noise stuck in my brain

Tell me when all this shit’s over

Radioactive, touch too hot

Living fast, but my heart won’t stop

I feel dangerous when I’m not sober

And nobody here wants closure

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Club too loud, don’t feel my face

Drugs keep coming, don’t know their names

Lost in the pit, it’s rockin’, it’s knockin’

I’m poppin’, but honestly I’m locked in place

Running up a check, don’t know what’s next

Expect ‘em to aim for the head

That’s why I don’t wear a vest

I know they wish I was dead

Lions, tigers, bears in my circle

Egoista, we do not care

Everything you drop minimal

Say it again, I dare you

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Eyes on phone, overtime

They farm our focus, monetize

Keystrokes feeding the heat source

We all complicit, what’s the recourse?

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I feel dangerous when I’m not sober

She want me close, but she don’t want closure

Got lots to say, I’m stuck in my brain

Tell me when all this shit’s over

Radioactive, burn too bright

Living fast in a dying light

I feel dangerous when I’m not sober

Still pretending I got control, though

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Break it down, slow it please

Lay waste just to upgrade screens

New phone, new lie, same disease

Can’t get to grieving, can’t find peace

If I die, bury me somewhere green

If there’s anything left, know what I mean

I use my gift just to write this chorus

Still wearing the demon, still avoiding mourning

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I feel dangerous when I’m not sober

No closure, just motion

No silence, just scrolling

I feel dangerous…

And I don’t know when it’s over.

(fade)

Eyes on the phone.

Heart in purgatory.