Long rides

My journey is full of excellence,
I avoided drugs, and evolved from women with pestilence,
Sometimes I sit and think, “have I been gone too long?”
I put my faith in god, “how can I right my wrongs?”
The devil cracking jokes but I just play along…..
Staring in the mirror, catching glimpses of my vision,
The reaper getting nearer, Am I special? -am I different?
Am I meant to fantasize about my life, and what I’m missing?
I seem to catch myself, cuz when I fall I get ambitious,
Am I tripping?  Or has everything around me started spinning?
Am I wrong, if I stop giving love and my assistance?
-to the ones that always take more than they needed, 
They done cut me many times, and yet I still can’t stop the bleeding,
Ante up,
I fill my cup, with Hennessy,
Until I lean or find a reason…….
[Hook]
This journey it’s been personal,
What’s it looking like from your side?
I’ve been finding better peace,
But even then, these feelings I hide…….
So many people counting on me,
Can’t help but feel alone on this ride,
This journey’s been personal,
At least it was this time………
(I know……..)
You……
(-Seen wrong…….)
I know-
(You……)
Lived right……..
(I know……..)
You……
(-Seen wrong…….)
I know-
(You……)
Lived right……..

Hip hop, trap, jazz-hip hop, emotional, background vocals, melodies, blues-rap