[Intro – Soft / Reflective]
Still here.
Still breathing.
Trying to remember who I am
When I’m not being used.
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[Verse 1]
They tell me “man up,” like silence heals
Like breaking means weak, not something real
I pay for the dinners, the drinks, the lies
Smile through it all while I’m dying inside
I’m not her lover, I’m a walking card
Tap me when needed, then toss me apart
She says I’m “special” when rent’s overdue
Then ghosts my whole soul when she’s done with you
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[Pre-Chorus]
I scroll through my phone like it owes me a sign
Everyone’s happy—guess that means not mine
So I talk to the ceiling, it listens the best
No games, no judgment, no knife in my chest
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[Chorus]
I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna feel
Like I’m only worth what I buy or I deal
I’m breathing, yeah—but barely alive
Just another good man learning how to survive
They say “you’re enough,” but it’s never enough
When love feels like war and I’m losing my trust
I don’t wanna die, I just wanna be seen
In a world that keeps killing the man in me
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[Verse 2]
I stopped checking my phone for replies
Stopped hoping someone would read my eyes
No more “good mornings” that die by the night
No more explaining my worth in a fight
I was the shoulder, the wallet, the fix
Too good to keep, too easy to miss
If I speak up, I’m weak—if I don’t, I’m a tool
So I stepped out the ring, broke the rule
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[Pre-Chorus]
They say “don’t give up,” but I didn’t quit
I just stopped forcing a puzzle that didn’t fit
If love costs my soul, then here’s my truth—
I finally chose myself over you
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[Bridge – Honest / Quiet Resolve]
If I vanished tonight, would they miss my face?
Or just the comfort, the help, the space?
I don’t want rest in the dirt or the dark
I want peace that doesn’t tear me apart
Friday nights, quiet rooms
No fake laughs, no doomscroll blues
I sit with my thoughts—they don’t betray
They don’t leave when things turn gray
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[Final Chorus]
I’m not lonely, I’m just alone
There’s a difference I finally know
No more bleeding to feel something real
No more deals that I’m meant to lose
I don’t hate love, I just walked away
From the games that kept me in pain
I don’t wanna die—I wanna live free
And a quiet life… finally lets me breathe
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[Outro – Soft / Grounded]
Still here.
Still human.
No war.
No chase.
Just space.