Jealousy

I saw him laugh and my lungs got tight

Not 'cause he lied, but somethin’ ain’t right

Heart skipped beats like a scratched up track

Eyes told truths that he never took back

He said “relax,” but I feel the fire

Tryna stay cool but I’m caught in the wire

It’s not her fault, it’s the space between

Where my thoughts build stories like a guillotine

I ain’t tryna be toxic, nah, I ain’t proud

But love got quiet, and my fears got loud

Every joke he makes with someone new

Hits like a ghost I can’t undo

Jealousy , she walks with me

In the silence, she talks to me

Not a stranger, she’s family

The shadow in my sanity

Jealousy , she wears my name

And I play her twisted game

She ain’t loud, she ain’t cruel

She just bends my golden rule

I’ve been calm, been cool, been fake

But inside I’m glass that’s 'bout to break

I scroll, I stare, I overthink

Each like, each heart, each little wink

He says I’m “too much,” nah, maybe I care

Too hard, too deep and that ain’t fair

To me or him but I ain’t blind

I see what’s real between the lines

I’m not mad at her, it’s not even hate

It’s the fear of not bein’ enough he won’t state

She’s not in his arms, but she’s in my head

Sleepin’ right next to me in my bed

(Yeah)

I pray for peace, but she prays on me

A pretty lie in my honesty

Love got wings, but doubt got roots

And jealousy?

She wears my boots.

Jealousy she walks with me

In the silence, she talks to me

Not a stranger, she’s family

The shadow in my sanity

Jealousy she wears my name

And I play her twisted game

She ain’t loud, she ain’t cruel

She just bends my golden rule

She ain’t fire, she’s fog creeping slow

Turning maybe’s into “no,”

She’s the crack in the smile, itch in the trust

Turns “ride or die” into “lose or bust”

And yeah, I know love’s gotta breathe

But I’m out here choking on what I believe

I hold on tight, but that’s my sin

'Cause love don’t live where fear moves in

Jealousy...

She’s not the villain I chose...

She’s just the whisper.

Of what love never shows.