IF I DISSAPEAR

Hook

If I disappear, would you even care

Or would you move on like I was never there

If I disappear, would you say my name

Or let the drugs take credit for the pain

If I disappear, don’t look for me

I been lost inside my head for weeks

If I disappear, just understand

I tried my best, but I’m a broken man

Verse 1

I been fightin’ demons I can’t see

Pop a pill just to feel fuckin’ free

Every smile that I show is fake

Every breath feel like a mistake

I gave my heart to people who left

Told me they’d stay, then dipped like the rest

Now I’m talkin’ to God through a double cup

Ask Him why love always fuck me up

I’m tired of wakin’ up feelin’ dead

Tired of conversations in my head

They say slow down, but I want it fast

Tryna outrun a past that always last

I numb the pain, yeah, I overdose calm

Tryna forget who I’ve become

I hate myself when I’m sober

But I hate myself more when I’m gone

Pre-Hook

I don’t feel safe in my own skin

I don’t know where the fuck I fit in

I keep fallin’ for the same sins

Tryna quit, but I relapse again

Hook

If I disappear, would you even care

Or would you move on like I was never there

If I disappear, would you say my name

Or let the drugs take credit for the pain

If I disappear, don’t look for me

I been lost inside my head for weeks

If I disappear, just understand

I tried my best, but I’m a broken man

Verse 2

I write these songs like suicide notes

Hopin’ someone hears what I don’t show

I laugh in public, cry alone

Every night feel like I’m goin’ ghost

I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna feel

Every emotion cuttin’ too real

I pray for peace, but I chase the high

Tell myself I’ll quit, then I fuckin’ lie

I see my future in an empty room

Bottle half gone, Percs gone too soon

They say time heals, but time just waits

While I sabotage everything great

Bridge / Outro

If I disappear, remember the pain

Remember I tried, remember my name

I loved too hard, I felt too deep

Now I’m beggin’ for rest, not sleep

If I disappear…

Just know I fought…

But some wars don’t end

They just stop