[Intro] Yeah… Uh I’m fucked up again Same girl, new pills [Hook] She love when I’m high, hate me sober Percs in my blood got my heart gettin’ colder Said she won’t leave, but I know that’s a lie Everybody stay until they watch me die I’m poppin’ these pills like they part of my diet Mind too loud, I need drugs for the silence She say I’m toxic, I know that I am I don’t love myself, how the fuck can I love her? Damn [Verse 1] I fuck my life up one line at a time White pills, dark thoughts, still say I’m fine She cry in my arms, I’m numb to the sound Lean slow drip, watch my world spin around I treat my heart like it’s disposable Same with love, yeah I’m cold as fuck, emotional I tell her “trust me,” then I disappear I’m loyal to drugs, not promises, yeah Money come fast but the pain come faster Fame just amplify the shit that matter I got demons talkin’ every time I blink So I sip codeine ‘til I can’t even think Mama prayin’, I ain’t listenin’ Dealer textin’, I respond quicker than friends again [Hook] She love when I’m high, hate me sober Percs in my blood got my heart gettin’ colder Said she won’t leave, but I know that’s a lie Everybody stay until they watch me die I’m poppin’ these pills like they part of my diet Mind too loud, I need drugs for the silence She say I’m toxic, I know that I am I don’t love myself, how the fuck can I love her? Damn [Verse 2] Sex feel empty when your soul feel dead I fuck her body but I sleep in my head She say “slow down,” I say “I can’t stop” Life feel better when my heartbeat drop Every pill got a cost, I don’t care no more I been knockin’ on death like a front door I smile in public, rot in private I’m rich in money, bankrupt in spirit They say “Juice up next,” I say “who’s next to fall?” I seen too many names on a memorial wall If I OD tonight, don’t act surprised I been sayin’ goodbye in every line [Bridge] If I stay sober, I gotta feel it All the trauma, yeah, I’d rather kill it So I pour another cup, let it fade Trade my future for a better today [Hook] She love when I’m high, hate me sober Percs in my blood got my heart gettin’ colder Said she won’t leave, but I know that’s a lie Everybody stay until they watch me die I’m poppin’ these pills like they part of my diet Mind too loud, I need drugs for the silence She say I’m toxic, I know that I am I don’t love myself, how the fuck can I love her? Damn [Outro] Drugs got my soul in a chokehold Love turn fake when the highs get old If I don’t wake up, just know I tried I just couldn’t live without wantin’ to die