She love when I’m high

Yeah…

Uh

I’m fucked up again

Same girl, new pills

She love when I’m high, hate me sober

Percs in my blood got my heart gettin’ colder

Said she won’t leave, but I know that’s a lie

Everybody stay until they watch me die

I’m poppin’ these pills like they part of my diet

Mind too loud, I need drugs for the silence

She say I’m toxic, I know that I am

I don’t love myself, how the fuck can I love her? Damn

I fuck my life up one line at a time

White pills, dark thoughts, still say I’m fine

She cry in my arms, I’m numb to the sound

Lean slow drip, watch my world spin around

I treat my heart like it’s disposable

Same with love, yeah I’m cold as fuck, emotional

I tell her “trust me,” then I disappear

I’m loyal to drugs, not promises, yeah

Money come fast but the pain come faster

Fame just amplify the shit that matter

I got demons talkin’ every time I blink

So I sip codeine ‘til I can’t even think

Mama prayin’, I ain’t listenin’

Dealer textin’, I respond quicker than friends again

She love when I’m high, hate me sober

Percs in my blood got my heart gettin’ colder

Said she won’t leave, but I know that’s a lie

Everybody stay until they watch me die

I’m poppin’ these pills like they part of my diet

Mind too loud, I need drugs for the silence

She say I’m toxic, I know that I am

I don’t love myself, how the fuck can I love her? Damn

Sex feel empty when your soul feel dead

I fuck her body but I sleep in my head

She say “slow down,” I say “I can’t stop”

Life feel better when my heartbeat drop

Every pill got a cost, I don’t care no more

I been knockin’ on death like a front door

I smile in public, rot in private

I’m rich in money, bankrupt in spirit

They say “Juice up next,” I say “who’s next to fall?”

I seen too many names on a memorial wall

If I OD tonight, don’t act surprised

I been sayin’ goodbye in every line

If I stay sober, I gotta feel it

All the trauma, yeah, I’d rather kill it

So I pour another cup, let it fade

Trade my future for a better today

She love when I’m high, hate me sober

Percs in my blood got my heart gettin’ colder

Said she won’t leave, but I know that’s a lie

Everybody stay until they watch me die

I’m poppin’ these pills like they part of my diet

Mind too loud, I need drugs for the silence

She say I’m toxic, I know that I am

I don’t love myself, how the fuck can I love her? Damn

Drugs got my soul in a chokehold

Love turn fake when the highs get old

If I don’t wake up, just know I tried

I just couldn’t live without wantin’ to die