Yeah…
It’s quiet but it’s loud in my head
You ever feel like that?
Like you underwater but still breathing…
Late night, ceiling talkin’ back to me
Mind run laps, no track, no referee
Every thought heavy, draggin’ like chains
Try to scream out but it echo in my brain
Clock tick slow but my chest go fast
Memories cut like they shattered glass
Try to let go but they pull me deep
I ain’t slept right in like two damn weeks
I been drownin’ in the silence, no sound
Whole world up, but I’m feelin’ so down
Fake smiles just to blend with the crowd
But inside it’s a storm, rain pourin’ right now
And I can’t find air when I need it most
Every breath feel like a ghost
Sinkin’ deeper, outta control
Tryna fight it, but it won’t let go
I’m drownin’ in my thoughts, can’t swim away
Every wave hit harder every day
Try to breathe but the water fills my lungs
All these voices got me feelin’ numb
I’m sinkin’ to the bottom, can’t be saved
Lost inside the mess I made
If I scream, would you hear me now?
Or am I too far gone to be found…
Dark clouds sittin’ where my head at
Every “what if” feel like a setback
Overthinkin’ every word I said
Rewind moments I wish were dead
I been fightin’ me, it’s a civil war
Same demons knockin’ at the same door
Try to lock ‘em out but they got the key
Guess the worst enemy is me
Heartbeat heavy like a bassline drop
Thoughts go spin, never really stop
If peace was close, I still couldn’t see
Too deep in the water, too lost in me
And I can’t find air when I need it most
Every breath feel like a ghost
Sinkin’ deeper, outta control
Tryna fight it, but it won’t let go
I’m drownin’ in my thoughts, can’t swim away
Every wave hit harder every day
Try to breathe but the water fills my lungs
All these voices got me feelin’ numb
I’m sinkin’ to the bottom, can’t be saved
Lost inside the mess I made
If I scream, would you hear me now?
Or am I too far gone to be found…
If I fade, would it all go quiet?
Or just turn to another riot?
In my mind where I can’t escape
Every second feel like it’s too late
But a spark still fightin’ in the deep
Even shadows scared of what I keep
Maybe one day I’ll break these chains
And breathe again through all this pain
Still underwater… but I’m movin’ slow
Maybe I ain’t as gone as I thought though…
Yeah…
Still here.