Numb were love should be part 2

🎤 “Numb Where Love Should Be Pt. 2”

(Ann Marie inspired — deeper pain, emotional R&B/Hip-Hop)

…yeah…

(mm…)

I thought it would get better with time…

but it don’t…

(I still feel empty…)

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You still hold me when I pull away (pull away…)

Still say my name like it make me stay (stay…)

And I hate that I can’t love you right (I do…)

‘Cause you deserve more than lonely nights (you do…)

You keep askin’ what’s wrong with me (with me…)

Why my heart feel so outta reach (so far…)

I wish I knew how to fix myself (I do…)

Instead of needing everybody else… (mm…)

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Every time you say “I need you” (need you…)

I panic inside, I freeze too (freeze…)

You tryna get close, I shut down (shut down…)

Like my soul don’t make a sound… (no sound…)

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I still can’t feel love… it scares me now (it scares me…)

You loving me hard, I don’t know how (I don’t…)

You kiss my scars, I still feel numb (still numb…)

Like my heart too damaged to love someone… (too damaged…)

And I know you tired of holding on (holding on…)

Trying to fix what’s already gone (already gone…)

You give me your heart so easily (so easy…)

While mine still broken mentally… (broken…)

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I see the hurt all in your face (your face…)

Every time I drift away (away…)

You say I’m here but mentally gone (gone…)

Like half my soul already moved on

And it ain’t your fault, it’s mine instead (mine…)

Too many thoughts inside my head (too many…)

I been hurt so much I stopped feeling deep (deep…)

Now even love can’t reach me

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Look—

I be tryna love but it feel rehearsed (rehearsed…)

Like every “I love you” sound forced at first (forced…)

You deserve somebody whole inside (whole…)

Not somebody broken tryna hide

I built these walls way too tall (too tall…)

Now I don’t know how to let ‘em fall (fall…)

And you keep fighting for my heart (my heart…)

While I’m scared to give you every part

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Maybe I been numb for way too long (too long…)

Maybe pain turned me this cold (this cold…)

I want to love you the right way (right way…)

But my heart don’t know the road…

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I still can’t feel love… it’s hurting bad (hurting bad…)

You give me joy I wish I had (I wish…)

You hold me close, I still feel gone (so gone…)

Like something inside me been wrong too long… (too long…)

You deserve real love, I know that’s true (that’s true…)

And I hate I can’t give that to you (I hate it…)

You gave your heart so easily (so easy…)

While mine still broken mentally… (broken…)

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…I’m trying…

(I really am…)

I just don’t know how to feel anymore…

mm…

maybe one day…