Ash in My Throat

Rust on my hands

From the bridges I burned

Teeth full of sand

From the words that I swallowed and never returned

You said “grow up”

I carved it into my skin

Counting the cracks in the ceiling

Waiting for something to give

I’ve got ash in my throat

From the names that you set on fire

Every promise just turns to smoke

When you dress your blame up as a choir

If this is all that you wrote

I’m tearing out the page

Going higher

I’ve got ash in my throat

But I’m still

I’m still singing through the wire (hey!)

Sleep like a stone

Thrown through a window at night

Walk through your home

Every picture is posed like a fight

You call it love

When you’re nailing me to your doubt

I bit my tongue ‘til it bled

Now I’m spitting the poison out

I’ve got ash in my throat

From the names that you set on fire

Every promise just turns to smoke

When you dress your blame up as a choir

If this is all that you wrote

I’m tearing out the page

Going higher

I’ve got ash in my throat

But I’m still

I’m still singing through the wire (woah)

You want me broken?

Say it out loud

You built your kingdom

On my back in the ground

I light a match

To the shadow you cast

Watch it collapse

As I breathe for the first time

Last

I’ve got ash in my throat

From the names that you set on fire

Every promise just turns to smoke

While you hide your hands

Calling it choir

If this is all that you wrote

I’m tearing out the page

Going higher

I’ve got ash in my throat

But I’m still

I’m still singing through the fire (oh yeah)