Happy

VERSE ONE:
Oh lord, please, hear me out
Know it's been far too long m
Since I've reached out, said hello
I bet you're wondering
Why I keep obsessing, stressing all the little things
When I should be living life and soaking up memories
I've been selfish
Got no excuse to give you, I know
I'm hanging by a thread
That's just how I live
Don't know why, but I feel more comfortable
CHORUS:
Living in agony, watching my self-esteem
Burst into flames
Act like I don't care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully
That's the furthest thing from how I feel
I'm too proud to open up and ask you
To pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
Truth is, I need help, I just can't imagine who
Who I'd be if I was happy
VERSE TWO:
Been this way so long
It feels like something's off when I'm not depressed
Got issues that I won't address
Got baggage I ain't opened yet
Got skeletons I need to put to rest
Got traumas I just can't forget
Got phone calls I've been avoiding
Family members I don't connect with
Things said I wish I would've not let slip
Hurtful words that should've never left my lips
Bridges burned, I'm not ready to rebuild yet
Insecurities I haven't dealt with
I'm the first to admit I'm a lonely soul
Last to admit I need a hand to hold
Losing hope, headed down a dangerous road
Strange, I know, I feel most at home when I'm
CHORUS:
Living in agony, watching my self-esteem
Burst into flames
Act like I don't care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully
That's the furthest thing from how I feel
I'm too proud to open up and ask you
To pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
Truth is, I need help, I just can't imagine who
Who I'd be if I was happy
BRIDGE:
Don't know what's around the bend
Don't know what my future is
But I can't keep on
PRE-CHORUS:
Living in agony, watching my self-esteem
Burst into flames
Act like I don't
CHORUS:
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully
That's the furthest thing from how I feel
I'm too proud to open up and ask you
To pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
Truth is, I need help, I just can't imagine who
Who I'd be if I was happy
If I was happy
Yeah, if I was happy

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