Prompt / Lyrics
I was just a kid pretending to be a father You were a mother who only showed up When there was blame to give And then you vanished again... --- [Verse 1] I was the anchor in a ship you left Raising five hearts on what I had left You chased men across county lines While I cooked, cleaned, and learned to lie Met every stranger you brought through the door Called ‘em dad but felt like a chore They never stayed, and I never asked Just smiled while wearing a borrowed mask --- [Pre-Chorus] I was drowning slow in the weight of the day You were out chasing love two states away I didn’t hate you—I just couldn’t breathe Holding up your world while you left me beneath --- [Chorus] I’m sorry I broke while I tried to bend I was a boy standing in for a man They blamed the thunder, but I was the rain Flooding in silence, swallowing pain I loved them more than they could know But I had to leave to save my soul Now I carry the guilt in every breath But I won’t wear your shame or death --- [Verse 2] You only came back when something was wrong Took inventory of what I’d done Scolded my hands, ignored my eyes Asked why the dishes weren’t stacked just right I missed birthdays so I could pay the bills Taped broken toys with the force of will Read them bedtime stories I made from pain Still, you said I was the one to blame --- [Pre-Chorus] They cried for mom, I wiped their tears Buried my fear for seven years I taught them how to tie their shoes But who was there to help me through? --- [Chorus] I’m sorry I broke while I tried to bend I was a boy standing in for a man They blamed the thunder, but I was the rain Flooding in silence, swallowing pain I loved them more than they could know But I had to leave to save my soul Now I carry the guilt in every breath But I won’t wear your shame or death --- [Bridge – Spoken or Screamed] You traded time for the chase of affection Left your eldest son to learn rejection I met every man who swore they'd stay Watched them vanish by the end of the day I’m not the villain in your story I’m the ghost of your responsibility --- [Breakdown – Screamed] Don’t call it desertion Call it survival Don’t call me selfish I chose revival You made me the parent Then made me the blame But I walked through that fire And left with my name --- [Final Chorus – Stripped, Then Full Power] I’m sorry I broke while I tried to bend I was the spark — not the end They blamed the smoke, but never saw the fire Holding the house while it sank in the mire I hope they know it wasn’t goodbye It was live... or die I’ll carry the guilt in every breath But I left to save what I had left
Tags
Emo/midwestemo/alt/post-hardcore/pop-punk/acoustic/Japanese synthcore
Duration
4:00
Instrumental
No
Created
8/7/2025