I keep tripping into same bad habits
Same black hole, and I dive right at it
Say I’m done, but I’m back, I panic
I’m the best I’ve been
Till I wreck it again
I keep tripping into same bad habits
Break my heart, then I pick up the fragments
Build a throne out of all my damage
Trying to be my best
Till I ruin it again
Eyes wide at 3 a.m.
Swear I'll change, then I press send
Text my past like it's my friend
(why again, why again?)
Promises stuck to my mirror
Dry-erase dreams disappear
Every year I write it clearer
Still I'm back here, back here
I keep tripping into same bad habits
Same black hole, and I dive right at it
Say I’m done, but I’m back, I panic
I’m the best I’ve been
Till I wreck it again
I keep tripping into same bad habits
Break my heart, then I pick up the fragments
Build a throne out of all my damage
Trying to be my best
Till I ruin it again
New phone, same old numbers
New life, same old summers
Scroll my guilt till my thumbs hurt
Then I laugh like it don’t burn
Tell my mom I’m doing better
Hide the pills under the sweater
Every “fine” in every letter
Is a lie in fancy words
I keep tripping into same bad habits
Same black hole, and I dive right at it
Say I’m done, but I’m back, I panic
I’m the best I’ve been
Till I wreck it again
I keep tripping into same bad habits
Break my heart, then I pick up the fragments
Build a throne out of all my damage
Trying to be my best
Till I ruin it again
What if I don’t get past this?
What if I’m just my patterns?
What if “better” is just practice
For a fall that really shatters? (oh)
I say “this time, I mean it”(This time, I mean it)
But my shadow never leaves me(leaves me)
Guess the hardest part of healing(healing)
Is the parts that wanna bleed me(bleed me)
I keep tripping into same bad habits
Same black hole, and I dive right at it
Say I’m done, but I’m back, I panic
I’m the best I’ve been
Till I wreck it again
I keep tripping into same bad habits
Break my heart, then I pick up the fragments
Build a throne out of all my damage
Trying to be my best
Till I ruin it again