Halfway Human

I light a match, then beg the fire not to spread

Kiss her lips while thinking of the one I left for dead

I don’t lie, I just omit the parts that sting

And every time I promise clean—I dirty everything

I play the good guy when I’m not

Say I’ll change, then hope they forgot

Love feels like a costume now

And I can’t remember how…

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🎙️ I see my face in the rearview

🎙️ And hate the things I still do

🎙️ I’m not evil… but I’m not whole

🎙️ I’m the cracks in self-control

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🎤 I’m halfway human, halfway hell

🎤 I break the ones who loved me well

🎤 Say I’m better, then I bail

🎤 Truth’s a coffin I still nail

🎤 I meant it when I held you close

🎤 But guilt don’t warm you like a ghost

🎤 I walk alone, I lost that fight

🎤 I’m halfway human every night

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She said, “You’re not a monster, but you make one out of me.”

And I laughed it off to hide how true that line would be

I swear I loved her—but I loved myself more

And now I sleep beside the guilt that keeps score

I wanted clean hands, but I held knives

Loved the thrill and killed the wives

Of who I could’ve been

But never let survive

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🎙️ I see my face in the rearview

🎙️ And hate the things I still do

🎙️ I’m not evil… but I’m not clean

🎙️ I’m the tear behind the screen

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🎤 I’m halfway human, halfway hell

🎤 I break the ones who loved me well

🎤 Say I’m better, then I bail

🎤 Truth’s a coffin I still nail

🎤 I meant it when I held you close

🎤 But guilt don’t warm you like a ghost

🎤 I walk alone, I lost that fight

🎤 I’m halfway human every night

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🎙️ I write apologies in smoke

🎙️ I leave them where no one looks

🎙️ If I ever get to heaven…

🎙️ It’ll be on the sins I took

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🎤 I’m halfway human, always torn

🎤 A warning label love was warned

🎤 She moved on, and I still stare

🎤 At the ghost that isn’t there

🎤 She’s in arms that won’t betray

🎤 I rot in every yesterday

🎤 No one left to blame or fight

🎤 I’m halfway human… every night.