LETTER TO MYSELF

(spoken, quiet)

I see you…

(inner voice, softer)

Even when you didn’t see yourself…

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You were waking up just trying to get through the day

Didn’t know where you were heading, just drifting away

Same walls, same cycle, same feeling inside

Like you lost who you were but you still had to hide

You’d sit there in silence, just staring at time

Letting hours pass slowly, just stuck in your mind

And you thought this was normal, just part of your phase

Didn’t realise you were just lost in that place

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Keep pushing… you got this, don’t lose your way

Even when it feels like it won’t change

It’s okay… to feel like this sometimes

You’re still moving forward, just give it time

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You thought life would be easy, just fall into place

Didn’t know what it meant just to carry that weight

You got things right too, don’t forget what you did

You cared, you loved, you gave all you could give

Even when it was heavy, you still stayed strong

Even when it felt like everything’s gone

You didn’t quit, you just didn’t know where to turn

But you stayed in the fire and you started to learn

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(spoken)

You thought that was it…

(inner voice, quieter)

You really thought that was it…

(spoken, building)

Like that was your life now…

(inner voice, breaking slightly)

But it wasn’t…

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Now I look back at you with a different respect

You were fighting a battle you didn’t expect

And yeah you got things wrong, but you gave what you had

You were doing your best even feeling that bad

(soft, to self)

And I see that now…

And you’d be shocked if you saw where you are right now

The way you think, the way you move, you’d be proud right now

Still not perfect, still building it day by day

But you’re not that version that just fades away

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Keep pushing… you got this, don’t lose your way

Even when it feels like it won’t change

It’s okay… to feel like this sometimes

You’re still moving forward, just give it time

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(whispered)

I’m proud of you…

(very soft)

I really am…