Hello me

Nothing seems familiar
But then nothing ever did
I spent a life trying to find myself 
Amongst all the things I've hid
I wonder if this life
Would welcome all my thoughts
Or if it would be wise to remember
All the things that I've forgot
I don't know if happiness
Should ever truly be mine
Or if in all this misery
If I'll end up feeling fine
I've spent some time in heaven
And done my bid in hell
I've lost so many loved ones
None of it sits quite well
Feeling lost feels so common place
Amongst all that fells amiss
Sometimes I wonder if anything
Will ever be better than this
Should I want for better
What does a lost soul deserve
And if I should call to heaven
What good really would it serve

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