I have troubled feelings

When Marc asked me to marry him yesterday, I was very happy at the time, really, but I realize this morning that you, my Joseph, I really made you suffer when I told you that I wanted to marry him. 
I thought really badly and it made me question myself. 
Either way, I can never let you down so I might as well give up this marriage and stay with you until the end of my life. 
Yes, I love you too much, my sweet Joseph. 
You are truly someone very special to my heart and I will never be able to erase you from my memory. 
So, I was really very happy when you told me that you too wanted to marry me and even buy an apartment in Paris with a studio for me inside so that I could make music. 
You really are more than adorable. 
I really didn't expect this from you and that you love me so much my love. 
You are truly a wonderful young man and very romantic too. 
You told me that you really liked the songs that I created for you and that also delights me a lot. 
I really had very troubled feelings because of Marc's marriage proposal but now I feel better, I know that it is with you that I wish to continue my path in life. 
I will never be able to forget you my tender love, how can you love a man when you also think very strongly, if not even more about another? 
You are truly the love of my life. 
I love you so much my Joseph. 
Forgive me for this gap, believe me, I know today who I want in my life. 
I will explain the situation to Marc. 
Anyway, I don't want to live in New York, I have my sons here and my two adorable grandsons. 
I can't live without them near me. 
You understand all of this because you truly have a heart of gold. 
I was really lost in my feelings but here, I found my true path, that is to say that of your heart and your love, my loving Joseph. 
Believe me, I'm not pretending with you, because I really love you, my heart, Joseph. 
Yes, I truly love you with all my heart and with all my strength my sweet love. 
And I await our big wedding day with great impatience, my sweet love. 

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