Smoke in my lungs

Yeah

Yeah

Funny being famous

And you still broke,bitch!

Dead-eyed stare when I wake up,

Ash in my lungs, got the reaper on my wake-up,

Mind full of noise, every thought like a breakdown,

I don’t need saving, just space from the fake love.

Raised by the night, taught pain how to talk,

Every step heavy, hear the past when I walk,

Bottle half-empty, soul half-gone,

I don’t chase death, but it’s been tagging along.

I been rotting in my head, yeah I know it’s a mess,

Self-hate on repeat, no reset, no rest,

Everybody preaching “heal,” don’t know where I’m at,

I’m just tryna make it through the night intact.

(Hook)

I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna feel,

Mind stays violent but my heart still real,

Lost in the static, blood in the pen,

I write my sins just to breathe again.

I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna break,

World stay cold, I adapt to the hate,

Still here, still feral, teeth clenched tight,

I survive outta spite every goddamn night.

Voices get loud when the lights go low,

Every thought feels sharp like a throat full of glass,

I don’t talk peace, I talk coping,

Barely holding but I’m still coasting.

Drugs ain’t heroes, they just slow the bleed,

Temporary silence for permanent needs,

I know the cost, yeah I pay it in sleep,

Trade my dreams just to stay on my feet.

I don’t flex scars, I don’t glorify pain,

But I won’t lie, yeah it carved my name,

In the walls of my skull, in the lines of my face,

I learned how to breathe in a fucked-up place.

(Hook)

I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna feel,

Mind stays violent but my heart still real,

Lost in the static, blood in the pen,

I write my sins just to breathe again.

I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna break,

World stay cold, I adapt to the hate,

Still here, still feral, teeth clenched tight,

I survive outta spite every goddamn night.

(Bridge)

No halo, no horns, just a soul on edge,

One bad thought from the ledge in my head,

But I stay grounded in the weight of the truth,

I’m not clean, I’m not saved, I’m just choosing to move.

Every breath is a middle finger to fate,

Every verse proof I ain’t dig my grave,

I don’t need hope wrapped pretty in lies,

I just need today to not eat me alive.

Final verse, voice raspy, heart still beats,

I ain’t healed, but I refuse defeat,

If I fall, it won’t be quiet or clean,

I’ll leave my mark in the noise in between.

(Hook – Final)

I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna feel,

Mind stays violent but my heart still real,

Lost in the static, blood in the pen,

I write my sins just to breathe again.

I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna break,

World stay cold, I adapt to the hate,

Still here, still feral, teeth clenched tight,

I survive outta spite every goddamn night.

Outro:

Yeah…

Not healed.

Not holy.

Just here.