Afraid To Let Go (Stuck In The Loop)

Yeah…

I don’t know who I am right now.

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I can’t heal, I’ve tried, I’m sorry

I swear some nights feel too heavy

Can’t tell which side of me’s fighting

Or which side of me’s crying

Sometimes I can’t feel my face

Why do I keep making mistakes?

Can I just lay here in place?

Every thought telling me fade away

I’ve tried it all, yeah, I swear

I’ve heard it all, I’ve seen it all

But I still feel it all—who cares?

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I’m stuck in this loop, where’s the exit?

When you said forever, I wish you meant it

You took something from me I didn’t know was there

When you let me go, something cracked in the air

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Who am I? Someone afraid to let go

You decide if you’re ever gonna let me know

I’m sad, I know, yeah, I’m sad, I know

Heart on my sleeve but I’m moving slow

Who am I? Someone afraid to be alone

I keep holding on even when you’re gone

I’m lost, I know, yeah, I’m lost, I know

Still here, still breathing, still holding hope

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You said you had to move up there

Was I just the step to get you right?

Did I help you heal just to lose you

Now I’m scared every time it’s quiet at night

I gave you everything I had

You took my heart, left echoes back

Love feels warm then cuts like glass

I hate when you leave, love when you last

I’m lost, then I’m found, it’s torture in love

I smile for a second, then it’s not enough

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I don’t wanna die, I just want it to stop

The noise in my head, the pressure, the drop

I don’t wanna disappear tonight

I just want the pain to loosen its grip

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Who am I? Someone afraid to let go

You decide if you’re ever gonna let me know

I’m sad, I know, yeah, I’m sad, I know

But I’m still here, still moving slow

Who am I? Someone learning to stay

Even when my thoughts pull me away

I’m scared, I know, yeah, I’m scared, I know

But I’m choosing now not to let go

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I’ve seen love turn into scars

Seen promises fall apart

If I sound tired, it’s ‘cause I am

Still trying to be a man

If I go quiet, don’t assume

It’s not goodbye, it’s me regrouping

I’m not giving up on life

I’m just learning how to survive

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Who am I? Someone afraid to let go

Still hoping you’ll call my phone

I’m sad, I know, yeah, I’m sad, I know

But I’m still here—and that means more

I’m stuck in the loop, but I’m looking for light

One breath at a time, one night at a time

I’m scared, I know, yeah, I’m scared, I know

But I’m still here…

I didn’t let go.