Deathbed

I think i found  her 
 BUt she aint found me
 All these feelings they surroumd me 
 Feel like im drowning 
I need a way out 
That shit is played out 
I need a moment to myself to figure this out 

What the fuck 
I dont understand 
I wanna give you everything 
Please just take my hand 
You dont  understand 
Dont think you ever will 
But for you id kill 
Ill be jack and your jill

Lets roll down this hill 
Im feeling feelings that i never thought that i would feel 
Can this all be real 
Is it just dream 
Its just you and me 
Everything ive asked for 
I cannot believe 
Its too good to be true 
Theres a million things that i would give up just for you 
Tell me to be there 
Then im coming truh 
I dont wanna let you down 
Its something i cant do 

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When the world is falling down 
Ill be there to protect you 
You can count on me 
No matter what youre going through

Even in the next life ill be there forever 
I dont want an ex wife 
I know we can do better 

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I wrote it all down 
Everythings inside this letter 

I shouldve told you sooner 
I wont be here next year 

Doctors said im dying 
But i swear thay this was at least worth trying 
I wasnt lying i was just hiding 
Running from truth 
But i am so scared 
I dont wanna die this is not fair 
Im reallly living a nightmare 

Emo pop punk melody, heavy 808 bass, hard trap drums, rhythmic flow