[Verse 1]
Ash on the desk
Buzz in the wall
Phone screen lit
I don’t call
Clock says “sleep”
Heart says “run”
Teeth on the glass
Bite on my tongue
Burnt-out taste
On my breath
Scroll, refresh
Still feel death
Same four walls
Closing in
I keep pacing
You keep spinning
[Chorus]
I can’t slow down (slow down)
Hands shake, mind loud
Every shadow in the room
Got my name in its mouth
I can’t lie now (lie now)
It’s too dark to laugh it off
Every thought a loaded round
And I’m chewing on the cough
[Verse 2]
Blue light bruise
Under my eyes
Voices in the vent
Trade alibis
Half-heard fights
Through the floor
Every thud sounds
Like my door
Sip tap water
Like it’s gin
Try to drown
What’s in my head
Promise myself
“One last try”
Then chase my fear
Across the night
[Chorus]
I can’t slow down (slow down)
Hands shake, mind loud
Every shadow in the room
Got my name in its mouth
I can’t lie now (lie now)
It’s too dark to laugh it off
Every thought a loaded round
And I’m chewing on the cough
[Bridge]
If I sleep, will I wake?
If I stay, will I break?
I keep praying to a ceiling
That never prays back
If I call, will you come?
If I talk, will you run?
I keep drowning in the echo
Of what we never had
[Chorus]
I can’t slow down (slow down)
Hands shake, mind loud
Every shadow in the room
Got my name in its mouth
I can’t lie now (lie now)
It’s too dark to laugh it off
Every thought a loaded round
And I’m chewing on the cough
[Outro]
[Drums fall away, bass distorts and fades]
Room goes wide
Like a lens
My name rings out
Then ends