Track · Apr 2, 2026 · English
NOT WHERE I SHOULD BE
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2:55
Language
English
Lyrics
[Intro — slow, reflective]
(soft)
Three years back…
I didn’t even recognise myself…
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(still, quiet)
Looking in the mirror like…
who are you…
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[Verse 1 — slow → build]
I was there… but I wasn’t present…
Walking round but I felt disconnected…
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Same place… same days on repeat…
But inside I knew… I ain’t where I should be…
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Tried to hide it… played it cool outside…
But deep down I was fighting my mind…
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Told myself “you’re good”… yeah I lied…
Couldn’t even face what I felt inside…
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[Rap Pocket — faster]
Lost in my head, no direction, no aim
Running in circles, I’m stuck in the same
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People around me, but still feel alone
Built up a version that didn’t feel home
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Knew I had more but I couldn’t break through
Watching my life like it’s nothing to do
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Sitting there thinking “what happened to me?”
Knowing damn well I ain’t where I should be
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[Pre-Chorus — slow]
(soft, honest)
I knew it then…
But I did nothing…
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Watched time pass…
Like it was nothing…
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[Chorus — melodic, emotional]
(singing)
I’m not where I should be…
But I know there’s more in me…
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Fighting what I can’t see…
Trying to find me…
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(soft)
I was lost for a while…
But I won’t stay there…
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[Verse 2 — deeper]
Anger built up… I was mad at myself…
Knew I had potential but I needed some help…
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Didn’t ask… just carried the weight…
Let it sit there… let it turn into hate…
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Days went quick but I stayed the same…
Watching everyone else start making a name…
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That hit different… I can’t lie…
Made me question everything in my life…
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[Rap Pocket — faster, sharper]
I could’ve changed but I stayed in place
Looking at time like I’m losing the race
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Knew what I needed but didn’t commit
Half in, half out, I was stuck in the split
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Telling myself that I’ll do it tomorrow
Building a cycle of stress and of sorrow
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Deep down knowing I’m wasting my years
Smiling outside but I’m drowning in fears
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[Bridge — slow, turning point]
(soft, honest)
Then something changed…
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I got tired of feeling that way…
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Tired of excuses…
Tired of delay…
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Looked in the mirror…
And said “fix this”
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[Final Chorus — stronger]
(singing, more power)
I’m not where I should be…
But I know there’s more in me…
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I won’t let this be me…
I’m finding me…
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(soft ending)
Three years gone…
But I’m still here…
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[Outro — calm, resolved]
(quiet)
Not where I was…
Not where I wanna be…
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But I’m closer…
Than I used to be…
Style
emotional rapstorytellingslow-medium tempodynamic flowraw male vocalslight pianosubtle beatexpressive toneenglish
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Prompt by
BENJAMINAI
BENJAMINAIGeneratedApr 2, 2026
ModelZona