Push away

I lit the match and watched it burn

Every lesson taught I never learned

Chasing thrills on a one way street

Left my soul bare but my flesh feels sweet

I built a wall brick by sin

Every excuse let the devil in

Gratitude nah I tossed it aside

Complaints roll out like waves and tides

Late nights chasing shadows in the dark

A carousel of lust left a hollow mark

Every why me drifting with disdain

In my own storm I dance in the rain

Grateful for what I only see lack

Blinded by desires I never look back

He whispered softly I slammed the door

Now it's just echoes on this empty floor

Ghosted grace I turned away

Pushed the light chose the gray

Habit strong spirit weak

He knocked once I didn't speak

Push away

Ghosted grace

The Holy Spirit push away

I built my walls brick by brick tall

No grace to catch me when I fall

Pride in my chest like armor on steel

Who needs a healer when I can't feel

Bitterness brews like a storm in my veins

Every grudge I hold adds weight to my chains

Forgiveness knocks but I deadbolt the door

I'd rather stay hurt than let my soul soar

Spirit whispers I pretend not to hear

Heart’s on lockdown wrapped up in fear

I see the light but I shade my eyes

Afraid it'll burn through my paper thin lies

Self reliance writes checks that my soul can't cash

I'm a spark without flame just cold dead ash

Every mirror I face reflects my scars

I count my pain like I'm counting stars

Unforgiveness eats like rust on steel

But I rather be numb than admit I need to heal

Spirit blocked I can't let it in

Bitterness thick like a coat on my skin

Pride’s my anthem self is my king

But it's lonely in the silence when the angels won't sing

Push away

Ghosted grace

The Holy Spirit push away

I hear the knock but I don't open

Heart like a stone it's barely broken

Pages dusty prayers unspoken

Chained to the grind no doors awoken

II see the signs but I just swerve

Faith on the shelf it don't deserve

My time my mind my will to serve

Ignoring whispers I don't preserve

Echoes faint but I tune em out

The call’s too soft my mind’s in doubt

Shadows dance I'm lost in clout

I sow the drought I block the route

Mirror cracked I can't see clear

Reflections scream but I don't hear

Apathy thick it steers my fear

The voice of love I won't come near

Every seed I didn't sow

Every time I let it go

Every whisper I ignored

Left me empty craving more

Ghosted spirit I let it fade

Running from the truth I made

Silent cries I disobeyed

Ghosted spirit light decayed

Push away

Ghosted grace

The Holy Spirit push away

There you have it

last year I told the devil keep away

This year the Holy Spirit you push away

Armor up

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