Painful memories v3

(Verse 1)
Time and time, it comes, it goes,
“Lost and found,” the story flows.
I pause, I choke, the words don’t stay,
Gotta start again, a brand-new page.
An empty book, my heart’s been torn,
Re-apply myself, I’m battle-worn.
Climbin’ up from a hole so deep,
Dug on purpose, where shadows creep(Verse 1)
Time and time, it cuts, it bleeds,
“Lost and found,” my heart’s in need.
I pause, I break, the words just fade,
Gotta start again, on a tear-stained page.
This empty book, my soul’s been split,
Re-apply my heart, though it’s barely lit.
Climbin’ from a hole that’s cold, that’s raw,
Dug on purpose, where my demons claw.  
(Pre-Chorus)
The decade’s gone, it spun too fast,
Left me chokin’ on a shattered past.
Thought my world was built to stand,
But it slipped like dust through tremblin’ hands.  
(Chorus)
Painful memories, they tear, they scream,
Light another cig, drown this broken dream.
Sad, so sad, my heart’s in chains,
Old thoughts, old scars, they still remain.
Nervous, shy, I’m scared, I’m torn,
Hate the man I was, the weight I’ve worn.
What’s left for this shadow, lost in the rain?
In this drawing of life, I’m carved in pain.  
(Verse 2)
I thought my roots were deep, were true,
But they snapped in half, left me black and blue.
The thought’s gone now, it drowned in grief,
Another puff, no sign of relief.
Old influences, they’re ghosts that wail,
Fadin’ in the dark, but they still derail.
They claw my mind, they steal my breath,
Remind me of a me that’s closer to death.  
(Pre-Chorus)
Nervousness chokes, my shyness burns,
Frightened by the tides, how the world turns.
I see my face, I loathe its stare,
Every choice I made, a cross I bear.  
(Chorus)
Painful memories, they tear, they scream,
Light another cig, drown this broken dream.
Sad, so sad, my heart’s in chains,
Old thoughts, old scars, they still remain.
Nervous, shy, I’m scared, I’m torn,
Hate the man I was, the weight I’ve worn.
What’s left for this shadow, lost in the rain?
In this drawing of life, I’m carved in pain.  
(Bridge)
Last Backwards Shadow, that’s who I am,
A tremblin’ soul with no real plan.
Down to the end, where hope’s just a spark,
I’m screamin’ for light in the endless dark.
This page is blank, my hands they shake,
Gotta write my truth, though my heart might break.  
(Chorus)
Painful memories, they tear, they scream,
Light another cig, drown this broken dream.
Sad, so sad, my heart’s in chains,
Old thoughts, old scars, they still remain.
Nervous, shy, I’m scared, I’m torn,
Hate the man I was, the weight I’ve worn.
What’s left for this shadow, lost in the rain?
In this drawing of life, I’m carved in pain.  
(Outro)
Time and time, it grinds, it stings,
Painful memories, the hurt they bring.
Down to the end, I’ll crawl, I’ll fight,
A Last Backwards Shadow, chasin’ the light.  

Raw trap metal. Glitchy 808s and brutal guitars meet vocals that switch from aggressive rap to raw screams.