Closed off

[Verse 1]
I wake up in a war again
My mind’s a mess I can’t defend
These voices echo through my bones
Even when I’m not alone
You try to reach, I pull away
Afraid I’ll make you feel this way
My heart’s a room I never show
The windows cracked, the lights stay low umm umm
[Pre-Chorus]
I want to let you in so bad
But I destroy the good I’ve had
[Chorus]
I’m fighting demons in my head
They whisper lies I’ve always fed
And every time love calls my name
I turn around and take the blame
I’m closed off, yeah, I shut the door
Not ‘cause I don’t want love — I just can’t take more
You see the surface, not the scars
I’m a battlefield with a fading heart woo woo yeea 
[Verse 2]
You give me light, I shade my eyes
Scared of the truth, scared of goodbyes
You hold me close, but I resist
Can’t trust the warmth inside a kiss
You say you’ll stay, but I’ve seen loss
And every promise has a cost
So I stay distant, safe and numb
But deep inside, I come undone ummm umm
[Pre-Chorus]
I want to feel what love could be
But I’m a prisoner I can’t set free
[Chorus]
I’m fighting demons in my head
They whisper lies I’ve always fed
And every time love calls my name
I turn around and take the blame
I’m closed off, yeah, I shut the door
Not ‘cause I don’t want love — I just can’t take more
You see the surface, not the scars
I’m a battlefield with a fading heart woo woo yeea
[Bridge]
If I could break this heavy chain
I’d run to you through all the pain
But I’m still lost inside this war
So I build walls instead of doors
[Final Chorus]
I’m fighting demons in my soul
They take control, they won’t let go
And even when you beg me to
I can’t believe I’m good for you
I’m closed off, trapped behind the fear
Wishing I could pull you near
But love can’t live where ghosts still start
I’m a haunted home with a locked-up heart woo woo yeea

Modern Trap with Deep 808s and Atmospheric Synths, emotional ballad, dark pop, or acoustic style, young female vocals.