Stardust

​ There was no sudden crash, no lightning through the floor

Just a landslide in my soul, a shifting at the core.

The future hollowed out, like a room stripped of its breath

In the undertow of silence, I am drowning in your death. I’m learning how to breathe air that doesn't hold your ghost

To walk within a world where I miss you the most.

​You were the vastness 'fore the eye could even adjust

The purest dream that fate ever ground into the dust.

Vaster than forgetting, denser than the blackest deep

You’re the colossal silence that has put the noise to sleep.

I’m mourning for a life that never even had a face

The shadow of a ship that never left the landing place.

​Does the universe reclaim what it never truly gave?

Do promises go dark when they’re heading for the grave?

I search for you in blind spots, in the hollows of the clock

In the pulsing of my blood and the stardust where we lock.

You don’t heal from a void that was never filled before

You just learn to live with hunger, aching at the door.

​This isn’t just a wound, it’s a rewrite of the soul

An infinite erasure of the things that made me whole.

I don't cry for your end, but for your "never-having-been"

The weight of your eternal absence underneath my skin.

​You are the sky.

I am the earth waiting for the rain.

You are everything missing.

An infinite stain.