INTRO Yeah… Uh I don’t even know why I keep doin’ this shit But it’s the only time I feel honest Let’s go CHORUS I been fucked up, poppin’ pills for the pain Different girl every week but they all feel the same She say she love me, I don’t know what to say I’m numb off the drugs, tryna drown out my brain Pour another cup, yeah I know it’s a shame Heart so broke, I don’t feel the rain These bitches come close but they never stay I fuck my life up in a beautiful way VERSE 1 Met her off the late night, she said she relate Said she love my voice, love the way I create I was already high, couldn’t tell what was fake She was starin’ at my scars, sayin’ she could relate I been runnin’ from demons with drugs in my hand Percs got me floatin’, I barely can stand She said slow down, I said you don’t understand This shit in my head got me stuck in a jam I fall too fast, yeah I know that’s my flaw Give my heart out, then I break my own laws She want the love, I just want to feel okay So I fuck her once then I push her away Tell her I’m fine but I’m really not straight Smilin’ in public, internally hate I don’t need love, I just need somethin’ real But the drugs the only thing help me feel CHORUS I been fucked up, poppin’ pills for the pain Different girl every week but they all feel the same She say she love me, I don’t know what to say I’m numb off the drugs, tryna drown out my brain Pour another cup, yeah I know it’s a shame Heart so broke, I don’t feel the rain These bitches come close but they never stay I fuck my life up in a beautiful way VERSE 2 Late night thoughts got me textin’ my ex Even though I know that shit end in regret She said I’m toxic, yeah bitch, no shit I mix heartbreak with a double dose fix Friends say chill, but they don’t hear the noise Only time it stop when I’m paranoid I don’t chase love, I destroy it instead Overthinkin’ everything I ever said She wanna save me, I told her don’t try I been livin’ this way, yeah, since way back I’m not a hero, I’m barely alive Just another lost soul gettin’ high to survive If I’m bein’ honest, I’m scared of the truth Scared if I’m sober I’ll see all the wounds So I light it up, let the pain dissolve Another night, same problem unresolved CHORUS I been fucked up, poppin’ pills for the pain Different girl every week but they all feel the same She say she love me, I don’t know what to say I’m numb off the drugs, tryna drown out my brain Pour another cup, yeah I know it’s a shame Heart so broke, I don’t feel the rain These bitches come close but they never stay I fuck my life up in a beautiful way OUTRO Yeah… Still searchin’ for peace in a pill or a face I know this shit killin’ me slowly But tonight, it’s all I got

I F*ck up my life in a beautiful way