Regret so Heavy

Doors slam metal echo through the block,

CO keys swing, every jingle like a clock.

Cold tray slid through,

half hope, half rock,

Stare at same wall, same brick, same spot.

Counting cracks, like tally marks in my brain,

Hear ‘em argue in the dark,

some curse, some prayin’.

Letters folded thin, got my fingerprints stained,

But your boy still breathin’,

still tryna dig deep.

I see what I lost — time, love, and peace,

Can’t get it back, but I’m climbin’ at least.

Locked down, can't break these walls,

Cold nights, concrete halls.

Locked down,

hear my people call,

Swear I'm never comin' back at all,

Pushups on the floor,

tryna sweat out the pain.

Mistakes on repeat, play loud in my head

Every wrong move feel like words I never said.

Ma, if you could see me now,

you’d cry in your sleep,

But your boy still breathin’,

still tryna dig deep.

But your boy still breathin’, still tryna dig deep.

I see what I lost — time, love, and peace,

Can’t get it back,

but I’m climbin’ at least.

Locked down, can't break these walls,

Cold nights,

concrete halls.

Locked down, hear my people call,

Swear I'm never comin' back at all,

I see what I lost — time,

love, and peace,

Can’t get it back,

but I’m climbin’ at least.

Locked down,

can't break these walls,

Cold nights, concrete halls.

Locked down,

hear my people call,

Swear I'm never comin' back at all.

Regret heavy on my chest like this bunk frame,

Swear to God I ain’t never doin’ this again.

Fear of losin every bond I ever had,

So I’m writin’ out plans just to make you glad.

A promise in pen I’m breakin’ this chain,

Walkin’ free-minded,

no cell in my brain.