Lost

Yeah, yeah, you know what it is...

Fighting demons in my head, feeling lost, feeling dead.

Used to roll with the gang, now I'm solo in this pain,

From late nights with the crew to a mind that's gone insane.

Parties on the block, where the bottles never stop,

Now I’m stuck at home, feeling like I'm in a shop.

I walk through the aisles, see shadows in my sight,

Panic grips my throat, can't breathe, can't fight.

Thoughts of ending it all, keep on creeping like a ghost,

When I laugh, it's just a mask, not the person I miss most.

Back to back, I'm facing,

Mind racing, heart's pacing,

Chemical imbalance, thoughts in a chalice,

Got me questioning my balance.

I fill like I don't belong,

In a world that's so wrong,

Fight the shadows, play along,

But I'm singing my sad song.

Life was a party, now it's a war zone,

Bad decisions echo on my phone,

Used to shout, “we’re alive,” now I’m quiet as a tomb,

Reach for help, but I drown in the room.

Anxiety’s a thief, stealing moments from my mind,

Can’t even smile, like I'm waiting on the rewind.

I wore my scars like trophies, now they’re fading away,

Fighting battles in the silence, every night, every day.

Back to back, I'm facing,

Mind racing, heart's pacing,

Chemical imbalance, thoughts in a chalice,

Got me questioning my balance.

I fill like I don't belong,

In a world that's so wrong,

Fight the shadows, play along,

But I'm singing my sad song.

Head held high, but I’m falling low,

Searching for light in the shadows I know.

One step forward, but two steps behind,

Holding on tight, but I'm losing my mind.

So I’ll keep on rapping these truths,

Pour my heart out till it soothes.

In this life, yeah, I’m feeling the strife,

But I’m still standing, fighting for my life.