Reverse in My Head

[Verse 1]
Wake up in a sweat
Same four walls, same debt
Phone face down on the desk
So I don’t read what you text
Half my friends in the wind
Other half in my head
I been talking to the ceiling
Like it’s all that I got left
Mom said breathe, count to ten
I been stuck on three, my friend
Every mirror like a trial
I don’t like who I defend
Pacing circles in my room
Looking for a softer truth
But the hardest thing I ever did
Was tell the truth to you
[Chorus]
It just keeps running in reverse in my head (my head)
All the words I never said, all the words I said (I said)
If I could scrub it like a tape, would I still be this afraid?
Or would I let it play instead, let it play instead
It just keeps running in reverse in my head (oh, in my head)
Every fight, every night, every tear you shed
If I could cut and fade away, would I still feel this regret?
Or would I let it play instead, let it play instead (yeah)
[Verse 2]
New day, same bruise
Hide it underneath loose
Clothes, jokes, little half-smiles
Like I’m fine, what’s the news
Scrolling through your old pics
Heart doing old tricks
Why I only miss you now
That I’m the one you don’t miss
They say “heal, take time”
I say “cool,” then lie
Dive back into old lies
Just to feel half-alive
I been ducking every call
Writing names along the wall
If growing up is losing you
Then I don’t want to grow at all
[Chorus]
It just keeps running in reverse in my head (my head)
All the words I never said, all the words I said (I said)
If I could scrub it like a tape, would I still be this afraid?
Or would I let it play instead, let it play instead
It just keeps running in reverse in my head (oh, in my head)
Every fight, every night, every tear you shed
If I could cut and fade away, would I still feel this regret?
Or would I let it play instead, let it play instead (let it play)
[Bridge]
You said, “One day you’ll understand”
Now your echo’s in my hands
Holding on to every frame
Afraid to press erase again
[Chorus]
It just keeps running in reverse in my head (my head)
All the words I never said, all the words I said
If I could scrub it like a tape, would I still be this afraid?
Or would I let it play instead, let it play instead
It just keeps running in reverse in my head (running in my head)
Every fight, every night, every tear you shed
If I could cut and fade away, would I still feel this regret?
Or would I let it play instead, let it play instead (oh yeah)

rap, Minor-key piano over thick distorted bass and tight, punchy drums; male vocals start close and confessional, almost whispered. Hook blooms with stacked soulful harmonies and wide airy pads, vinyl crackle and subtle reverse FX washing into turnarounds. Verses stay dry and upfront; chorus drenched in reverb and delay tails, drums duck slightly to let the vocal soar. Final hook strips to piano, bass, and layered ad-libs for a haunting outro., vocal, raw, moody, soulful