The man in my shadow

TRACK 5 — THE MAN IN MY SHADOW

[Verse 1]
Lately I been lookin’ in the mirror like, “Who are you?”
I don’t recognize the face, just the damage I been walkin’ through.
Shadow on my shoulder tellin’ me I’m still the same,
Like every time I try to heal, he gotta reopen the pain.
I been tryna figure out why I sabotage my blessings,
Why I push away the people who could help me with the stressin’.
Why I act like I’m okay when I’m breakin’ in my chest,
Why I’m scared of bein’ loved but I crave it like the rest.
I don’t know if I’m the villain or the victim in my story,
I don’t know if God is hearin’ me or gettin’ tired of me.
I don’t know why I keep runnin’ from the things I need,
Why I bleed for everybody else but never let myself bleed.
I don’t know why I’m addicted to the chaos in my head,
Why I sleep with all my demons like I’d rather hurt instead.
Why I’m loyal to the trauma that been killin’ me for years,
Why I numb the things I feel instead of facin’ all my fears.

[Hook]
I’m still lost, tryna figure out who I’ve become,
Fightin’ shadows in the dark till my body go numb.
I keep searchin’ for myself but he don’t show up,
Every time I get close, he tell me “Don’t grow up.”
Yeah, the man in my shadow keep pullin’ me back,
Tellin’ me I ain’t worth love, only worth what I lack.
I’m still lost, but I’m tryin’ not to lose my soul,
Tryin’ to find the me I was before the world took control.

[Verse 2]
I been askin’ all the questions that I’m scared to hear the truth to,
Like why I feel alone even when I got a room full.
Why I let my trauma talk louder than my faith,
Why I’m scared of bein’ happy like it’s somethin’ I can’t take.
Why I judge myself harder than anybody else,
Why I give out all my love but don’t save none for myself.
Why I’m loyal to the pain like it’s all I ever had,
Why I’m scared to let it go even though it makes me sad.
Why I’m scared to trust people when they show me they care,
Why I push away the ones who always choose to be there.
Why I’m scared of bein’ honest ‘cause I hate what I’ll say,
Why I’m scared of bein’ real in case they all walk away.
Why I’m scared of bein’ seen when I’m beggin’ to be known,
Why I’m scared of bein’ held when I’m tired of bein’ alone.
Why I’m scared of bein’ healed when I’m tired of bein’ hurt,
Why I’m scared to find my worth when I been treated like I’m dirt.

[Hook]
I’m still lost, tryna figure out who I’ve become,
Fightin’ shadows in the dark till my body go numb.
I keep searchin’ for myself but he don’t show up,
Every time I get close, he tell me “Don’t grow up.”
Yeah, the man in my shadow keep pullin’ me back,
Tellin’ me I ain’t worth love, only worth what I lack.
I’m still lost, but I’m tryin’ not to lose my soul,
Tryin’ to find the

Dark Emotional & Sik World’s Still lost vibe, harder rap.