I Shall Miss Myself

My name charred from the blast

Shadows screaming from the past.

Inside the mirror, it won’t reflect,

The face I wore, the soul I wrecked.

Every sign a faded hymn,

Every breath feels paper-thin.

I’m a recluse inside my skin,

And I shall miss myself again.

I shall miss myself—

Fire engulfs me in flame.

I shall miss myself—

A rebel escaping the insane.

I shall miss myself—

When silence calls my name.

I shall miss myself…

Never again to play your game

The fists I raised now fall apart,

The hollow drum plays my dying heart.

The cult of me got lost downtown ,

While the paper tigers tear me down.

Lightning strikes but burn away,

Clouds of smoke in shades of gray.

I’m a target, for them to take an aim,

A hamster wheel to outrun my shame.

I shall miss myself—

Thunder cracks along the sky.

I shall miss myself—

Truth forgetting its divine lie.

I shall miss myself—

Till the end I still won’t comply.

I shall miss myself…

Returning to dirt to watch the old me die.