Am I Enough?

Yeah…

Do you know what it’s like

When you wanna cry

But you gotta pretend you’re fine?

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All I do is let you down

Am I enough? Am I enough?

I just wanna make you proud

Am I enough? Am I enough?

Do you know what it’s like when you wanna go cry

But you hide in your bed, keep it all inside

Tell the world that you’re feeling just fine

While your pillow knows every tear you denied

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Losing sleep is constant, waking up exhausted

Waking up just to hate myself is toxic

When I’m stressed and overwhelmed, I clench my fists

Tryna hold it in but my patience gets lost quick

Please stop telling me I’m messing up

When you yell at me I just shut down

Don’t take much to show you’re trying

I just want love but I feel pain now

Head down walking through the hallways

Hide my tears when I’m around peers

If I let it out I get called names

Anxiety lives with me all year

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Do you know what it’s like when you scream inside

But no words ever make it out alive?

Red eyes, but I still smile

Wish I could hide it, but there’s no disguise

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All I do is let you down

Am I enough? Am I enough?

I just wanna make you proud

Am I enough? Am I enough?

Do you know what it’s like when you wanna go cry

But you lay under blankets and wait for the night

Praying nobody walks in and asks you why

While you tell yourself one more time, “I’m fine”

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“I was hoping we’d speak—sorry it’s been a bad week”

“Maybe I’ll give you relief if you leave”

See, that’s the way that you cope when you’re hurting

You block everyone out when you’re nervous

“Why would I care about you?”

Because I love you, I’m tired of watching you lose

I feel like you’re fading, I hate that you’re blaming yourself

Like you don’t deserve help too

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I’m trapped in my mind, look up, look left, look right

Calling to God but my voice feels tight

I keep making noise hoping they hear me

But all they see is fear in me

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All I do is let you down

Am I enough? Am I enough?

I just wanna make you proud

Am I enough… or am I too much?

Cry—let it out, don’t fall alone

Sit right here, tell me what’s wrong

If I’m barely holding on

At least now you know