[Verse 1] Texas memories fuck with my Cali nights Loved too damn hard, caught in endless fights Busted my ass as provider for five straight years Then hit rock bottom with nobody to catch my tears They say "fake that shit 'til you make it" – that's a lie Can't force this pain away, no matter how hard I try Her crying face at that hotel still cuts me deep Talking 'bout "we can fix this" – bitch, where was that energy last week? [Hook] Now I'm just floating through this bullshit Ghost of who I used to be(ugh) Trapped between the real and fake shit My kindness was all these vultures could see[Repeat x2](They said to fake it till you make it but bitch you fake and you aint faking) [Verse 2] Started with blow, spiraled to crystal Felt my mind snap, dancing with the devil Told her straight up I was losing my damn soul Body wasting to nothing, down to bones Took care of my son while you ran wild Learned to be a father with no fucking guide Then CPS snatched the kids, thought we'd get tight Instead you spread your legs for some other guy that night [Hook] Now I'm just floating through this bullshit Ghost of who I used to be(ugh) Trapped between the real and fake shit My kindness was all these vultures could see [Verse 3] DNA test – 99.8, he's blood of my blood But three states away when he said his first words, goddamn Missed first steps, first teeth – shit tears me apart Paid for all my services, did my part While these lonely nights become my new normal They twist the narrative like I'm the criminal When all I ever did was bleed for you all Gave everything I had 'til I took the fall [Verse 4] BPD diagnosis after I bounced out Mind in chaos while I'm trying to figure this shit out "Can't live without you" she said – now won't text back Empty words from lips that moved on hella fast Fucking with someone eleven years younger than me Close to our daughter's age – how fucked can you be? Try to let go but these feelings got me chained Heart follows its own path, drowning in the pain [Bridge] Past shadows stalking me, can't shake this shit(nah) Memories like handcuffs, wrists still bruised from it But in these Cali skies, might find a sliver of light Through the Texas darkness, still got some fight(ugh) [Hook] Now I'm just floating through this bullshit Ghost of who I used to be(bitch) Trapped between the real and fake shit My kindness was all these vultures could see[Repeat x2](They said to fake it till you make it but bitch you fake and you aint fakin) [Outro] Being real took me straight to the bottom Built my life on love that was rotten In a better space but the rage still burns Rebuilding from ashes, taking hard turns Not dead yet, but not fully alive Just floating through, trying to survive At times my ego thrives, others its modest as a mouse. Shit, sometimes all we really can do is float on , but my feet drag like boulders At times I feel like atlas with the world on my shoulders Atlas, how do you float on? With this weight on your shoulders

Im Your Ghost