Do You Always Look This Awful

[Intro – spoken, sarcastic tone]  
You said you missed me.  
I said, “Do you always look this awful?”  
Guess we both meant it.

[Verse 1]  
You showed up in tears and a thrift-store halo  
Said you’ve changed, but you still reek of betrayal  
Your voice is a trigger, your face is a curse  
Every word you spit just makes it worse

[Pre-Chorus]  
You want closure? Here's a fucking door  
You want peace? Try not being a whore  
I gave you my soul, you gave me disease  
Now I’m praying to God just to unsee

[Chorus – screamed & layered]  
Do you always look this awful?  
Like regret in a dress, like a lie in full bloom  
Do you always sound this hollow?  
Like a ghost with a script and a perfume of doom  
Do you always feel this toxic?  
Like a kiss that kills, like a love that consumes  
Do you always look this awful?  
Or is it just when I’m in the room?

[Verse 2]  
You said “I’m sorry” like it’s some kind of spell  
But I’m not enchanted—I’m crawling through hell  
You loved the drama, the damage, the scene  
Now I’m just the wreckage you keep squeaky clean

[Chorus – screamed & layered]  
Do you always look this awful?  
Like regret in a dress, like a lie in full bloom  
Do you always sound this hollow?  
Like a ghost with a script and a perfume of doom  
Do you always feel this toxic?  
Like a kiss that kills, like a love that consumes  
Do you always look this awful?  
Or is it just when I’m in the room?

[Bridge – whispered, then screamed]  
I see through your tears, they’re just props for the show  
You fake every feeling, but I know what’s below  
You’re a masterpiece of misery, painted in shame  
And I’m done being the canvas you blame

[Breakdown – heavy guitars, chaotic drums]  
Fuck your closure  
Fuck your grace  
Fuck your memory  
And your face

[Final Chorus – half-sung, half-screamed]  
Do you always look this awful?  
Like a nightmare dressed in last year’s truth  
Do you always sound this hollow?  
Like a prayer that chokes on its own abuse  
Do you always feel this toxic?  
Like a wound that smiles, like a love that bruises  
Do you always look this awful?  
Or is it just when I remember you?

Emo trap, emo rap, nu-gaze, post-hardcore fusion, rage male vocals