Do You Always Look This Awful

You said you missed me.

I said, “Do you always look this awful?”

Guess we both meant it.

You showed up in tears and a thrift-store halo

Said you’ve changed, but you still reek of betrayal

Your voice is a trigger, your face is a curse

Every word you spit just makes it worse

You want closure? Here's a fucking door

You want peace? Try not being a whore

I gave you my soul, you gave me disease

Now I’m praying to God just to unsee

Do you always look this awful?

Like regret in a dress, like a lie in full bloom

Do you always sound this hollow?

Like a ghost with a script and a perfume of doom

Do you always feel this toxic?

Like a kiss that kills, like a love that consumes

Do you always look this awful?

Or is it just when I’m in the room?

You said “I’m sorry” like it’s some kind of spell

But I’m not enchanted—I’m crawling through hell

You loved the drama, the damage, the scene

Now I’m just the wreckage you keep squeaky clean

Do you always look this awful?

Like regret in a dress, like a lie in full bloom

Do you always sound this hollow?

Like a ghost with a script and a perfume of doom

Do you always feel this toxic?

Like a kiss that kills, like a love that consumes

Do you always look this awful?

Or is it just when I’m in the room?

I see through your tears, they’re just props for the show

You fake every feeling, but I know what’s below

You’re a masterpiece of misery, painted in shame

And I’m done being the canvas you blame

Fuck your closure

Fuck your grace

Fuck your memory

And your face

Do you always look this awful?

Like a nightmare dressed in last year’s truth

Do you always sound this hollow?

Like a prayer that chokes on its own abuse

Do you always feel this toxic?

Like a wound that smiles, like a love that bruises

Do you always look this awful?

Or is it just when I remember you?