The Best I Can

Verse 1

I know I’m not easy to love

I come with ghosts I never asked for

Some days I’m quiet as hell

Some days I slam every door

I don’t always say what I mean

I shut down when I should explain

I promise it’s not that I don’t care

I just don’t know how to stay sane

Pre-Chorus

I’ve been fighting things you can’t see

Trying not to bleed on you

If I pull away sometimes

It’s me trying not to lose you

Chorus

I’m loving you the best I can

With a heart that’s been through hell

I don’t always get it right

But I’m trying, I swear to God I am

If I mess up, if I fall apart

Please don’t think it’s you

I’m loving you the best I can

Even when I don’t know what to do

Verse 2

I hate that I go cold sometimes

When all you want is close

I learned real early how to survive

By needing people the least

You see the cracks I try to hide

You still stay anyway

That scares me more than being alone

‘Cause now I have something to lose if you walk away

Pre-Chorus

I don’t need fixing, I just need time

To unlearn all the hurt

If I flinch when you love me right

It’s ‘cause love used to hurt

Chorus

I’m loving you the best I can

With hands that shake when they hold on

I don’t mean to push you back

When you’re the safest place I’ve known

If I cry, if I break down hard

Please don’t give up on me

I’m loving you the best I can

While I’m learning how to be free

Bridge

I’m not asking you to save me

Or carry my weight

Just stay honest, stay gentle

When my walls don’t fall straight

If you ever feel unloved

Please tell me before you leave

I don’t want to be another wound

On the heart that believes in me

Final Chorus

I’m loving you the best I can

With a heart still learning trust

I know I’m messy, I know I’m scared

But I want us — I want us

If you choose me on my worst days

I’ll choose you on your bad ones too

I’m loving you the best I can

And I hope that’s enough for you