I don't know why

I don't know why I said yes to your marriage proposal and the next day I retracted it. 
Yes, I was afraid, that's for sure, to leave my family and my country but today, my life is too sad without you. 
You don't want to talk to me anymore and I cry about it all day long, day and night. 
You tell me that your heart bleeds with pain because of me, but know that I too feel that my heart and even my life are broken. 
Yes, I love you so much, there are no words to describe the state of inner sadness I find myself in. 
I know very well that this is all my fault, I shouldn't have blocked you like I did but it was so that you could forget me more easily. 
Not that I didn't love you, on the contrary, but I didn't want you to suffer because of me. 
I know I'm so guilty my darling of all this, I understand very well that you want to ignore me now. 
Maybe it's better this way? 
I don't know myself. 
But the only thing I know is that I miss you extremely and that I love you very very very very very much in pain this time. 
Yes, it's too hard to go through a separation, especially when you still love the person forever. 
Marc, Marc, Marc, my soul calls you and my heart and my eyes cry for you with all their might. 
I hope you can understand this. 
This is my tender love, I can't tell you more for the moment. 
Take good care of yourself and try to find a moment, even a small one, to come and chat with me, it would make me so happy, my love. 
I too give you all my heart and all my soul. 
Forgive me, forgive me my love Marc. 
I love you very much and that's all. 
I love you very much my love and that's it until death. 

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