Numb Again

Scrollin' through the damage in my phone log

Same names, same fights, yeah it's on loop

Heart been on airplane mode too long

I don't even flinch when the pain shoot

Mama say pray, I just change route

Actin' like I'm fine till the mask melt

Friends say they ride, then they phase out

So I taught myself how to not feel

I been feelin' numb again

Numb again, numb again

Stare at the ceiling till it all blend

I don't wanna touch that hurt

So I shut it down first

Tell 'em I'm good, but it don't mend

I been feelin' numb again

Numb again, numb again

I don't even cry, it's just dry eyes

Sleepin' with the TV talkin' all night

Laughin' at the wrong time, off-side

Smilin' in a storm like it's alright (it ain't)

Bottle in the drawer for the bad days

Ghostin' every call when the walls shake

Feelin' like a glitch in the hallway

Stuck between the shout and the sound fade

I been feelin' numb again

Numb again, numb again

Stare at the ceiling till it all blend

I don't wanna touch that hurt

So I shut it down first

Tell 'em I'm good, but it don't mend

I been feelin' numb again

Numb again, numb again