...and again

My life's all crazy

Tho I tried to stabilize

It's all for nothing

If your partner doesn't realize

I cannot begin to give you me

If I'm not truly what you see

It's not a new problem

It's kinda my fault

I cast an aura

And the reality haunts

Over and over

I've tried to show you

What's inside

But it blasts right thru u

I've flooded your life with all my art

And left every word I've written

Out in the open from the start

I've invited questions

I have a perspective

I needed much knowledge

So i built a collective

I needed to see

And understand

But the urge clouded my vision

It got outta hand

I give what I am

In a manner so freely

You could look for another

But they'll never be Me

I always have wished

That just one would perceive

The depth and the gravity

To be found deep within me

I know at the surface

It's frosty and still

But just beneath all that

A torrent does swirl

It has always been

Cares not for my perception

Another dimension

In exchange for perfection

So I still hold out hope

Someday someone will see

The man that I truly am

And forever pick me.

...it could happen.