[Intro]
Every time I say I'm changing
I just sharpen up the blade
Set alarms for my redemption
Sleep right through them anyway
[Verse 1]
Wake up
Same stain on the ceiling
Same pit
Same sick little feeling
Tell myself, "This time, different"
Then I scroll till my soul going missing
Burn bridges just to feel that heat
Watch them fall like I planned defeat
Text back when I shouldn't, deep night
Then regret in the harsh blue light
Say I quit, then I sip, then I slip (yeah)
Turn a crack to a chasm I trip
I know the script, know the twist, know the fall
Still I sprint for the edge every call
[Chorus]
I keep losing the same way
Bleeding on the same blade
Running in the same maze
(yeah, I do it again, again)
Promise I will change soon
Circle like a black moon
Praying for a breakthrough
Then I ruin it again, again
[Verse 2]
Therapist asking me, "Why that choice?"
I laugh, dodge, throw jokes at my voice
Turn pain into punchline quick
Anything so I don't sit with it
Answer calls from the ghosts I blocked
Invite them back, hand over the lock
Mess up fresh trust just to feel that sting
Tear good things from the root, then sing
I write plans in a clean new notebook
By the week it's a gravestone, closed shut
I know better, but I crave that crash
Like I need the wreck more than I need the path
[Chorus]
I keep losing the same way
Bleeding on the same blade
Running in the same maze
(yeah, I do it again, again)
Promise I will change soon
Circle like a black moon
Praying for a breakthrough
Then I ruin it again, again
[Bridge]
What if I liked this hurt?
What if I'm scared of peace?
What if I pull my own wings off
Just to prove I'm meant to sink?
Ask myself
Then I kill the thought
Turn the volume up
Let the lesson rot
[Chorus]
I keep losing the same way
Bleeding on the same blade
Running in the same maze
(yeah, I do it again, again)
Promise I will change soon
Circle like a black moon
Praying for a breakthrough
Then I ruin it again, again (again)
(again, again)